watched Memoirs of a geisha todae with Keet wan... Nt bad a show... quite worth the money and time de. Since i'm not a spoiler and will not be (at least for now), i wun sae much lar... jus that i realise that in this world, there's a lot of thing which nid strategy, politics... Quite difficult for me.. coz i'm a veri... "innocent" gal??? haha... I mean usualli i can't protect myself against fierce aggression... verbally or physically. I think i prob die if i ever live in a world lyk that of the geisha... and that's another reason why i can nvr run for the politics... hehe.. i run for pleasure, not for people... haha...
The dog year has come... yeah.. and its realli 2006 le!!! With the long weekend, my lecturers can't help but to pile up my homework... making my to-do-list abit too long... Is this wad they call Cny??? Argh!!! In preparation of the new year, i tidied my room, decorated my room and the living room, cleared the rubbish and was such a good gal.. the lecturers had to do everything to destroy this holiday mood and gave us the load... haiz... sian... realli arhx... Singapore realli nid to rethink their purpose for holidays...
They often say holidays are for rest, to catch up with the entertainment and to spend more time with family... Crap i sae.. Rest? Where does it comes frm if we r kept to the desk??? Entertainment??? mebbe, if u consider the notes and assignment entertaining... Spend more time with family??? Well, mebbe.. if u think in terms of them in the living room watching tv, u in the room digesting the pile of homework... All under one roof!!!
Lately i feel so tired...Mentally tired... Physically still okae.. Haiz... Every morning wake up le jiu shi get ready for school.. den have to squeeze into the cramp LRT, following which is the ride to Yew tee, den wait for frewz... before continuing on to IJC.. Routine work... Argh!
Homework is piling up... Why??? This is just the provisional period u noe!?! Haiz.. Lecture notes, tutorial, assignment... Alot lehx... Even my mum abit worried about me... She kip reminding me to slp enough... Drink chicken essence, eat breakfast... Provisional period onli u noe!!! Its scary to think of wad will happen to me if i have to do this for two consecutive years... terrifying... i wonder if i can endure thru this...
I dunno wad's wrong with me... It difficult to look into ur eyes and accept it... That's why my msn nick is "[indecisiveme]". I realli dunno... Abit.. Abit of this and that.. Of wad.. I dunno... Haiz... Questions seems to be all ard me lately...
Almost a month has passed... Soon, i will be receiving my "o" levels results. Its just lyk in a blink of the eye, a flash of the lite, my provisional days in Innova are almost over. I will den be deciding, seriously, abt wad route i'll be taking, wad college or course to go for and things lyk dat... Kinda weird... I mean, I nvr ben able to control my future lyk dat before. Everything in the past were all ctrled by my parents, tutors and teachers... Nothing lyk dis had ever happened to me before... True, i had been a grp leader for many competitions but then, the decisions i made during these competitions usualli short-term... nt lyk dis time de... haiz... I do hope that the decision i'll be making in future will be a wise one though...
Hm.. Just lyk wad i said, this is onli the provisional period and yet, i oreadi have lots of homework piled up... haiz... nt easi to handle lehx!!! other then these mountain of homework, i still have this chemistry project to do... argh!!! Wadeva "initial-c"... But i guess it'll prob help in connecting me to my grp members... *hopefulli* I realise that my civices grp actualli nt bad lar.. i can at least still be frens with them... mebbe nt all, but definitely able to maintain a frenly relationship with most... That, is enough for me although i wun mind making more closer frens... hehe...
I think i'll kip this copy in my msn space too... since i'm nt realli sure whether i wanna ki[ this as my final blog or to stay put at my msn space... :P
