Monday, February 27, 2006
i'm now having this OGL meeting online... 8 ppl online chatting... i'm lucky dat my comp's nt bad... or else it'll b lagging until siao...
Tmr got physics test and yet... i'm still online... Later nid to do revision and chinese and yet i'm still discussing online...
haiz... I haben watch the haka yet... and yet i'm still blogging...
wad crap!?! but suan le... can endure, can handle can le... haha~
my dad told me abt his dream... his lifelong dream... B4 dat, i tot his was to live in a bungalow, in the lap of luxury but i was totally wrong.. he told me he wld love to, one day, sit rite in the middle of a plain, to read newspaper... it was dat simple.. As a joke, i told him dat he cld actualli go New Zeland for dat... and at most while he's readin, a cow wld poke her head in to join in... Haha~ nevertheless, i think its a nice dream.. a nice goal to go after...
Hm.. i think for now, i prob dream of earning big bucks.. getting myself surrounded by gr8 frens... holding hands with my Mr. Right... haha~ Dreams.. yeah~
Dreams... Its so hard to dream and yet... dere's always a goal... an aim which we'll work towards to... Its so hard to let ur imagination run wild with all those sickening rules we have to abide by, all those restrictions we have to place upon ourselves... Wun it be betta if we cld jus... run free? Wun it be betta if we cld jus... Dream?
Saturday, February 25, 2006
I've been slacking for the whole dae le... realli slacking... nt in terms of havin fun outside but in terms of sleepin, resting at home.. I hope dis will rejuvenate me for the hectic week coming up. It'll definitely b filled with OGL meetings, CCA, homework in addition to the usual lectures, and tutorials... Hm... I din realli slack the whole dae ba? In the late morning till late afternoon, I did some of my economics tutorial, tidied my files and documents and stuff lyk that. Then i went to Lot 1 with my aunt and youngest brother to "catch" my brother... He said he wanna go library mah.. den he went for the whole morning... we suspected that he wasn't in the library lyk he claimed so we went on the "investigation"... Ended up he WAS in the library... haiz.. "Mission Failed"
I jus visited my Chinese tutor's blog (www.weiwenren.blogspot.com) to c how mani ppl submitted the hw le... nt much ppl.. me planning to write de.. but now reconsidering coz i still lack of ideas and mood... Hm... the last time i went, which was in school, i saw that one of his links was of another tutor hu's was a tutor of Lin Jun Jie!!! haha... So jus now i went there again to save the pix... Haha...
http://tclim13.blogspot.com/
Suave rite??? haha~ I love his songs... coz they r nice n got the melody.. the upbeat and everything... haha~ But i wun b dat crazy as to badger dis tutor to get his autograph de.. me nt that thick skinned yet~!
hm... Wonder if i shld do the chinese thingy now...
Dis song is "I'm your angel" by Celine Dion and R.Kelly... Enjoy!!! Dedicated to all those ppl out there hu nid someone to rely on and to talk to and Of coz to all those hu noe me!!! Hm.. You can always approach me if u nid a listening ear or something... hehe~ Email me or jus tag me!
Friday, February 24, 2006
i regret.. i regret training my left arm... now it hurts lyk hell... it was okae yesterdae n e dae before until dis morning, when i reach behind me to tie my hair... I felt my muscles aching but can't identify which... until.. this afternoon as i was stretchin upwards, my arm starts to hurt... n now.. aft i realise it, it indeed hurts.. alot... i can't reach as before, i can't stretch my arm above my head... i regret!!! I hope it goes off soon... Haiz.. now my left arm is lyk sooo useless... cannot move that much... cannot stretch...
hm.. todae i wore the ijc uniform to school... the skirt is lyk so short!!! at least to me lar... den for the whole dae... i felt so restricted... cannot run up the stairs lyk i used to... cannot sit and "qiao" jiao... haiz.. alot of restrictions lor... kinda miss swiss uniform le.. but mus get used to it!!! Me Ij ppl le... haiz...
I joined the orientation 2 as leader todae!!! Hehe... its time to get serious!!! Me planning to b veri enthu!!! Veerrriii enthu!!! haha... I rejoined Dakota!!! Yay~ Hm... quite fun lar.... the guys (onli 3 guys lar) and gals in the clan r all quite enthu de... shld have no prob... Shu juan joined too as my AOGL... hopefulli she wun have any of her diarrhoea at any point of time during 6 ,7 ,8 of march...
have to go le..
bb!!!
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Whoa... Been sitting here at the comp table for abt 1.5 hrs... jus for changing the blog skin... Nice??? Me noob at html mah... so obviously nid a long time to do all those editing and customization... haha~
Todae veri tired... But nt as tired as yesterdae... I went to slp at 8++pm yesterdae.. which is so damn early... and woke up at 6 am... which is as equally early too... so i slept for ard 8 hours yesterdae... the longest i ever had for a very long time... So todae, I'm quite okae... haha~
Hm... the GP todae was okae... nt veri boring nor exciting... Jus abit of writing... Me long time no write le... so ehx... my writing skills deteriorateuntil cannot... mus realli jia you le... As for chinese lesson, we learnt abt blogging...(?) It was quite fun actualli... nt that i din noe anything abt blogging... its jus that its pretty fun to be in another area to study other than those classrooms... The chem prac, however, was a complete disaster.... i keep refilling the burette with the wrong solution... ended up two of my titration did not change color at all... blur me... haha~
Finally gotten my skirt le!!! I mean my school skirt lar... haha~ its nt bad, quite fitting... although its abit weird lor... there's pleats in frnt but nt behind.. weird? haiz... abit miss swiss uniform le... but den, can change uniform jiu change lor... nt everytime can change uniform design de lehx... haha~
There was this bowling meeting todae... With the new coach... Uncle Derrick, with the surname of Yap. He's abit deaf... so we had to speak a tweeny lil bit louder den usual... even if the LT has onli 4 ppl inside and nobody else is toking... He's cool... and nt bad ba? given that he'll b the first ever bowling coach i'll b having... When he was giving the talk, i felt lyk squirming in my seat... I was surrounded by expert bowlers and i feel odd among them... But still, I'm determined to take up the sport n i will definitely train hard for it! nxt yr, when i sit in the same room with them again, i make sure i am nt the one squriming in the seats!!! muahahaha...
k lar.. gtg le... erm... nt sure wad to do now... play comp games to relax abit or go do some work... haiz.. see first ba...
Sunday, February 19, 2006
I'm so tired!!! There's lyk so much hw piled up over the weekdaes and i'm too lazi to move the dust.. haiz... sian sia... scari u noe.... gt chinese compo, maths tutorial, chem tutorial, chem assignment... blah blah balh... etc etc... haiz... den my comp still crash... crash u noe!!! (lucky jus now repair it... ) haiz... dere was lyk so mani things piled up...
yesterdae i went to singapore sight-seeing with shu juan... hm... quite fun lar... if u consider going to ICA early in the morning to get my new passport fun.. haha~ At lavender lehx!!! but its okae... gt shu juan bulli 4 e whole journey can le... haha... den we went to bugis.. walk dere lor... using my memory to find the route... haha... nt bad hor... e thing is dat i can onli find the route frm sjab hq onwards... so "poor" shu juan had to walk all over the place... haha... hm... It was so damn warm lor... perspiring lyk mad... haha... treat it as sauna still think its too much lor... haha~ den she bought her new school bag... which looks cool... haha... nt bad lehx... i got see de lor...
hm... den we went to queensway to lk at shoes... her shoes to b exact... so it was damn hot there... (i mean how big can singapore be???) and i walk ard the "mall" till my legs was almost... broken? but i think its nt bad a trip lar... at least gt this shop kipper hu "found" me n recommend "his" contact lenses to me... $140 for 13 pairs of contacts... monthly... nt bad???? Tell me ur comments!!! coz i'm considering...
den we went to clementi for lunch... go eat the western food dere mah... $4... for one set.. quite full... den we made our wae to bt timah... to c there gt ijc uni anot... den crap lor... rain so heavily.. weird weather... we go lk for uni coz she wanna buy early go alter early.. den we also heard that e school lyk changing the skirt design to something which is veri yucki.. so we wondering if we can change fate... but apparently nt... none of the two shops there sell... haiz.. crap... lucky the rain stop le... or else i probably be locked up for indecent language... haha... (joking onli!!! I'm a veri guai person hu dun speak vulgar!!!)
hm.. so dat was yesterdae.. todae, i did most of my hw and went to e library ALONE... haha... k lar.. no big deal.. i sat reading there for lyk an hour plus beofre rushing home to watch the "catch me if u can". nt bad a show.. quite touching lor... haha... oh yar.. speaking of touching.. i wonder if anyone gt the helen keller film??? coz when ijc showed it to us for PCCG once, i kinda curious le... haha.. so if anyone gt mus tell me!!!
kk.. have to go le... bb
Thursday, February 16, 2006
so tired out... dunno why lehx... lyk lack of slp.... always feel slpy de... haiz... Hm... consider this: 10 ppl go IJC for the first intake, 3 ppl staying in IJC in the end... abit extreme hor??? haha... Anyhow, i'm one of the 3... well... at least go shu juan(my classmate for the last 4 yrs) and ang yun(ehx... schoolmate ba... for 4 yrs) for company.. cannot hope for too much in life lar... give some lose some lor...
Ehx.. lately me abit too enthu lehx... enthu abt school uniform, schoolwork and even pe... haha.. pe coz its frisbee mah... fun lehx!!! although dunno why my accuracy gt prob.. but its still fun. throw here throw there, den sometimes kana hit by the disc... haha... but still quite fun.. at least betta den dat touch rugby... less violent, betta!!!
hm... initally sae 4e6 can go take the testimonial on wed de... den change to friday (which is tml lar...). Now, they sae ms tay still reading our testimonial... den how??? how to get it back??? other classes get it back le... we haven... haiz... abit fan gan lehx... by when!?!?
i think i lyk my new gp teacher... although she's old... and realli english type, she's realli gr8!!! She actualli made us to brainstorm, den debate.. haha... nt realli a debate lar... more of a... discussion??? haha... I was trembling when i was saying my pts lor... stage fright.. haha...
Juan lately dunno y hor, suddenly so enthu abt bowling... dunno y lehx... she actualli tried to persuade me to pon school tml juz to go bowling... abit diao lar... but it was in view that we din actualli noe that our testimonial wasn't rdy for us yet at the moment and that we were planning to go school too to get it... for convinience sake lor... haiz... but i actualli fall for it.. but me have to c angyun going anot coz my purpose is to learn, nt to bowl for entertainment or training... haha.. so end up he decide on nt ponning... so me also nt ponning lor... haha... juan wld still have to come to school... haha.. but the catch is that i wld hav to pei her run tml lor... argh..
if meeting her at 6.15 tml in the morning de hua... den i wld have to wake p at ard 5.45 lehx... a far cry frm my usual 6.30.. haiz...
speaking of juan... i din buy her birthdae prezzie lehx.. haha.. totalli forgotten abt it... i'm so sry!!! hm... will get it asap de lar.. mean while me at most pei her run tml to make up for it lor... haha...
so tired le.. later still have to write chinese compo... den still gt maths tutorial... sian... me tml so earli get up still gt so mani things... haiz...
hm... me bought the school uni le... onli the shirt though... coz skirt dun have my size... hehe... me too slim le lar... haha... actualli no lar... dey dunno y onli have larger sizes... so me no choice have to wait till mondae to get mine... blehx... den its quite long lor... so me planning to alter it!!! haha... me alter skirt becoz its too long... haha... first time lehx!!!
hm... write alot todae.. dunno hu realli will read dat much... but its okae... gt write betta den din write... rite? haha...
Monday, February 13, 2006
I'm so damn red... nt in the sense of angry but... my skin is realli so damn red... haha... Sunburnt... nt first time le lar... everytime go sure kana sunburn de... but for the first time, i din go for hardcore cycling and again, for the first time, i din submerge myself into the sea water... haha~... first time lehx.. nxt time i go, i will aim for the hardcore cycling... hehe... i will go further den i did before... challenge myself mah...
when 0612c planned dis, everione was quite enthu... so we ordered alot of food... but todae.. onli abt 10 turned up... ended up we ppl have to bbq everything and eat them all... of coz, we din manage to survive them all lar... so some had to packed home some of the uncooked food... haha...
hm.. when we reached dere, we were qute far frm our pit... so we had to walked all the wae towards it.. it was definitely a long trip... Aft that, we checked out the rental of bikes ard that region.. it was damn ex lor...$5 an hour... so me and ben had to walked all the wae dwn to the ones near 7-11 to rent... $5 for the whole dae... nice! haha... den we spent the dae bbqing, cycling up n down... lyk dat lor.. the dae seem to pass by veri quickly... nxt time go i wanna go cycling n cycling onli!!! yay!!!
Haiz.. lucky i got my cap... or else my face sure as red as my arm de... although it is already red le... haha... it think it even got my specs de tan lines le... haha~! Worse is my feet... damn pain sia... imagine walking all over east coast with onli a pair of slippers... pain~!!!! but its worth it!!! i manage to interact with my civics grp ppl n dats good enough for me! although i see dat alot of ppl wanna go out of ijc, i will always remember dem as part of the pioneers of 0612c!! Wooho~!!!
Saturday, February 11, 2006
Somehow, sometime, one mus recover frm his/hers disappointment n try again de. its difficult... but nth is too easy, esp when it comes to emotional things... nth is ever easi... Haiz... Although i got such a grade, but hey! My life will not be controlled by these numbers and alphabets. Never!
Hm... Went to Swensons with abt 15++ ppl... A treat frm Seow lehx.. (Sry.. I dun mean to b rude... but its jus that its alot closer to call him "Seow" den "Mr. Seow".. Sounds too formal... But i still respect him!!!) Hm.. it was gr8! Paid for the baked rice myself (coz it'll b too much if he pays for it too... Ex lehx!!!). Haha... Den we had these Earthquakes... Nice lehx!! Swit and cold!!! haha... (obviously cold lar... haha~) Had these veri cute flavour of "Rum and raisin" which is abit weird for me lor.. budden, nth is ever too normal so wth... haha... Lien was perfectly norm... she actualli push in this tissue into the bottle which holds all the dry ice... Den drip ice cream inside... Dip her spoon inside the liquid... erm... yar... Perfectly norm... haha
Den we walked all ard west mall... window shopping lor... with keet wan, shujuan, kailing, weewee, yujia... went abit siao in the arcade, but hu cares... haha... all dat matters den was to enjoy ourselves while we can... hehe~
Back at home, we had this family gathering... alot o ppl gather... (obviously again~) There was alot of food and stuff... I went to Lot 1 with some of my relatives... me jus walk ard lor... den dey shop shop lor... jus lyk dat... den return home also slack ard... see see.. talk talk... play play... Abit sian lar.. haiz... n me abit slpy too...
A real busi day... but also a bit sian sian though... my score lyk dat de le... gt wad to happi??? haiz... budden... i definitely will jia you frm there! And my life will nvr b merely dependent on these stupid numbers de... Nvr! as long as i live, things will nvr be lyk dat for me!!! GO GO GO!!!
Friday, February 10, 2006
Received my "o" lvls todae... Quite disappointing.. n shocking... I had this instinct of getting a L1R5 of 16... for some reason.. How i did nt noe.. I jus got the instinct... the number jus came to my head... Den todae, when i received my results slip, i saw alot of b's... All are B3s... except one A1, one A2, one B4.... When i saw that whole thing, i got a shock... Tot i will get more than 16... even though i knew that i can get into a jc le... (worse case scenario: 6 * 3 = 18)
Den when i finally torn open my form a, i realli got a rude shock. 16.My instinct came true... Again... I think i can go be a fortune teller le... Everytime when i feel something in my bones, it jus come true... Haiz... But suan le lor.. My standard lyk dat jiu shi lyk dat... Nt dat i din do my best... But its jus that its veri disappointing.... Veri disappointing... Esp my english... the onli B4... and the least expected de...
I realli dun understand lor... My standard realli a B4 standard mah???? Did i screwed up my "o" lvl??? I realli dun understand... Its veri demoralising... haiz... Think i'll stay in Ijc... Think onli lar... But most prob... Den i'll jia you frm there! GO GO GO!!!
Thursday, February 09, 2006
I felt alot of things todae.. Pain, anger, sadness and fear...
I can't imagine this... I'm realli afraid that i may experience wad i experienced in my primary 1 days... Sadness. Loneliness... That was my dark period... my real crisis time. There was so much pain invovled there i virtualli had to cry myself to slp every nite... It was realli a pain. Stabbing pain... When pri 4 came, i vowed to myself that this will nvr happened to me again. And thus i opened my heart and change my personality altogether, gaining frens, which i nvr had before... frm den on, i aim to care for everyone of my frens, make time for them. I aimed to be there for them whenever they nid help, to make sure that they are nt alone. That i will always accompany them when they are likely to b alone. I sincerely do not wish ppl to end up lyk wad i was in my pri 1... Frenless, lonely, and being hated.
But when all my frens decide to skip school, all without me, leaving me alone all again, the fear strikes back. I was all alone again. Frenless, lonely... perhaps too small a person to be hated... I'm alreadi learning to be independent, friends or without... But its nt easy. i vowed nt to be lyk dat again n yet, i'm learning to break my vow. For the first time, i found myself out of the crowd. I found myself helpless... all again... I smiled in frnt of my civics grp but inside, i'm aching, forcing myself nt to think of them, trying hard.
i nvr wanted to be lyk dat... nvr in my life did i want dis to happen to me again. Once is enough. To put me thru dis again, i prob die. Simple. A jump off my floor, A cut on my wrist. Its easi u noe. When u r alreadi all numb inside. U wun feel the pain... But i nvr want to live my life lyk dat... its total waste of time to do that. but... to think in terms of a man hu gave up hope... its easi...
Okae... So there was a bone down in my throat yesterae... it was definitely terrible... Digustingly horrible and disturbing... to aid it in going down, dad told to force rice down... swallowing it without even chewing it... I did jus that, with much choking and vomiting... Still, it hurts... Dad intitialli wanted to bring me go hospital yesterae de... but me refuse... cause me nt sure if its still there or has it gone down... I wanted to wait till the nxt dae (which is todae) to see whether if its still there...
den todae, during pccg, i was at the frnt seat... the prime one... Aft much lifting my head upwards to look at the stage, me throat start to hurt again.. Den during lunch break, i panicked... Smsed my dad. He told me to meet him at commonwealth station... And so i did... Str aft my econs... (And oh! The econs test was too easi... and i suspect that it was too easi to be true... Crap~)
It was a easy journey to Gleneagles... But when inside, it was horrible... Complete Nitemare. First it was a measure of my blood pressure... Hm.. it was 69 n 119.. i think... if i remember correctly.. Den it was a long wait for the doc... And when i finally went in, all he did was to push my tongue with a ice cream stick and make me sae "arh~"... After dat, he recommended me to a specialist...
Now, at the specialist's... Another terrifying experience. He pulled my tongue (and when i say pull, i mean PULL~!!!) and make me sae "yee~" with a open mouth (as wide as a frog's) and a missing tongue... to feel wad i felt, try saying "yee~" with tongue sticking out and mouth wide open... Okae. Den he spray dis chemical into my nose, which eventualli made its wae down into my throat... Horrible! I guessed the chemical actualli widens my gullet.. or is it my trachea??? Den he poked this thing into my nose... which went down the same route as that yucky chemical... A great horrible experience. There was this telly in frnt of me... which shows its passage... i din even dare to lk... so damn scary to have something down the throat THRU the nose... OMGosh...
This doc here sent me down to the x-ray centre... so i had to take off my collar pin, my earings... and stand in a veri weird position... but its okae... the prob is that for some stupid reason, i cld nt stop shivering.. nt of coldness... neither of nerves... i dun even noe y... but luckily can still take the x-ray...
Ended up, the x-ray shows that no fish bone is in my throat... Crap... the bill frm the specialist alone was already $300++... Haiz.. But mum saes that at least it bought me a rest frm my nerves... Luckily gt insurance.. or else...
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
I think most of us noe that in life we have to make lots of decisions... i mean most of us had alreadi done that... but, to make a correct, win-win decision??? I guess most of us wld still have to grabble with it... I mean... mebbe its the wae i've been brought up, i usualli think in terms of responsibility and respect.. These usualli lead to a win-win situation... But... for some "wonderful" reasons, they failed me these days... All of a sudden... Out of the blue... In a bolt of the lightning... Why i dun understand... Responsibility. The part of me which usualli think in terms of the duties required of the individual. Respect. The other part of me which thinks in terms of the respect we have to give, and we have to receive in return... something of a trade...
but lately, away frm my parents and source of support, these failed me as the decision-making "wizard"... i do not understand why. These are the most important things one shld consider... although one may argue that its one's happiness that counts, i think that by growing up with such principles, i had gotten used to it and is, by far, happy and contented with it... Perhaps, jus perhaps, i will understand it someday.
Monday, February 06, 2006
I miss Swiss... I miss it alot!!! Something tells me dat this entry wld b veri sentimental... But i realli realli miss them... Class 4e6... the teachers... my cca... my juniors... Its lyk a veri abnormal life without them... without these accessories... these distractions... i realli wun mind turning back the sands of time, into the sec 4 days just to be with them all... to experience the stress again... to experience the pain and hardship... jus so as to be with them again... for a month, a week or even jus for one day... But its not that possible rite??? How i wish it is...
You are Not Alone -Michael Jackson
Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold
Chorus 1:
Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here to stay
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
Chorus 2:
You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
You are not alone
http://www.lovelyrics.com/artists/MICHAEL%20JACKSON%20lyrics/MICHAEL%20JACKSON%20YOU%20ARE%20NOT%20ALONE%20lyrics.php
I realli miss you guys... I realli appreciate the times we had together... the days of our times together.... I thank all of you for these wonderful memories!!!
Sunday, February 05, 2006
todae went to godma's hse... bored until cannot... ultimate le! More den half the ppl dere i dunno, den dey all plae Blackjack... gamble with real cash... den i dun gamble de... haiz...
Crappy dae... well... at least i'm richer by a few ang baos...
Friday, February 03, 2006
Oh my gosh... i realli veri tired~ Tired~!!! Hm... morning studi util abit tired le.. and saturated... den aft that went to the Seoul Garden eat.. Eat... Breakfast, break and lunch... until abit... full??? Okae.. mebbe its nt a bit... its ALOT!!! Veri Full lor... haiz... Den rush all e wae dwn to PJC... To support frenz for the open hse... Hm..
hung ard there till... 6 close to 7??? nt veri sure...
when i reach home.. dunno y i felt abit over-energetic.. den go joggin with dad... now... tired out lyk Shi*... haiz... how to do hw or revise for test.... TEST!!
OmGosh... Test!!! Maths test and chinese test nxt wk!!! Den rumours sae nxt wk get o lvl result... Whoa... nxt wk so mani programmes... i think i will realli die... Die of tiredness.. of saturation... of sianzation... haiz... Nvm lor.. Dying is onli a matter of time mahx.. onli hope dat i'll be able to do something... acheive something before i kick e bucket lar... haiz... Nxt wk lehx!!! ARH!!!
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
Veri exciting lehx!!! haha... my first time with a air pistol.... its me with the pistol and the pistol with me... hehe... Its definitely fun!!! Nt bad a sport... if u din noe how my hand tremble lar... partly due to excitement... partly due to the hunger (coz i din eat anything for the whole day excluding my breakfast which is a egg sandwich)... but mostly becuz my arm too weak to keep dat heavy pistol steady... i wonder if i can get my wae into the team??? i mus realli go lift some dumb bells le... haiz... but... treat it as an exercise lor~! haha~!