tHe wAy I aM

CHanged~!

2007-12-01T11:47:00.000+08:00

Blog has changed to

http://xlove-me-notsx.blogspot.com/

=D

A lvl

2007-10-11T15:18:00.000+08:00

i shouldnt be online.

I shouldnt be online.

I shouldnt be online.

K.

Buaiz~!

(P.S A lvl comING~!!!!)

Retail therapy rocks~!

2007-08-19T23:00:00.000+08:00

Did some shopping today

Bought a pimple cream, a facial wash, a water bottle, a hair bands, 4 clips...

Quite fun.

All within 1 hour

Rushed home for work.

Nah nah nah~

2007-08-14T15:02:00.000+08:00

Someone else always seems to get the credit for your work.
The harder you work the more people there will be to claim credit except when it backfires.
You get all the credit for the dumb move.

So random quote from some website....

Supposed to do GP now...

As if ppl wld post why they love abortion online...

Go library?

Mebbe. Got to stay in sch to study. Reckon they open till 9pm?

2007-08-09T18:16:00.000+08:00

Saw this at Jac's blog. Did a random test...

You Are Catwoman

"Life's a bitch. Now so am I."

What Superheroine Are You?

Terrible.

2007-06-12T15:24:00.000+08:00

Jetlag....

Argh~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Do i nid to sae more?

When all ends...

2007-05-24T20:26:00.000+08:00

Finalli bowling competition end le.

Had been a tiring period of time.

Had to struggle with tutorials and bowling.

Mentalli exhausted.

Life.

2007-05-12T23:10:00.000+08:00

Ben's friend died last week.

Suicide.

Onli 18.

Yet...

Wasted...

Uk~!!!

2007-05-07T22:11:00.000+08:00

Going to UK soon...

Excitement.

Prelim...

Sian.

Organic chemistry...

Torture.

Council...

Food and Fun~!!!

2007-04-22T21:44:00.000+08:00

Wonder if Ben lyk dis pix???

Had an interesting experience today.

Played the role of a guardian for kai today.

Became a caring, responible sister who bought him food, brought him to a tuition centre and to library.

Happy. Satisfied.

=>

Chey

2007-04-21T19:38:00.000+08:00

Turns out that the meeting was for informing us abt the trip.

Anw, received itinerary for the trip.

Veri excited.

UK trip

2007-04-18T14:22:00.000+08:00

Going to Uk le.

June holidays.

First week.

Veri xcited.

Receiving list of bring-ables and non-bring-ables today.

Later. To be exact.

Shall be depreciatinig S$1 to appreciate £1.

Learnt and applied.

UK~!!!! Woo-hoo~!!!

Blo0d~!!!

2007-04-11T20:56:00.000+08:00

Donated blood today.

Fresh. Red. Hot.

Now feeling pain.

Ache. Acute.

Feelin veri weak in the left arm.

Weak.

Interesting experience.

First was nervous.

Den anxious.

Pain on my middle finger come next.

Den another painful experience when the needle poked me.

Numbness.

Den nothing...

Spent 5 mins.

Too fast. Too Furious.

...

2007-03-31T16:24:00.000+08:00

This is the 101th post.

Just returned from a training at NEWater Visitor Centre.

Which is at Bedok.

Which started at 9.00am.

I'm so tired.

Finalli...

2007-03-21T20:38:00.000+08:00

Phew... Last paper le~!

Yay.

Went to watch this movie abt some dirty crocodile in Rwanda.

Damn disgusting.

But to see a reptile running.

Eye opener.

scho reopening

2007-03-18T21:01:00.000+08:00

haiz.. tml sch reopen le.

No. Not reopen.

Is resume normal time-table.

haiz....

Happi Birthday to me

2007-03-17T19:06:00.000+08:00

Happi birthday to me...
Happi birthday to me...
Happi birthday happi birhday...
Happi birthday to me...

Ehx... Oh yar....

To Zelda frm 4E5'06. Happi Birthday to you~!!!

(Although there's like 99% you wun see this... But still...)

hm... did maths all day long... ABit tired

Birthday is a good thing. Its a day you'll feel super special frm the time you wake up till the time you sleep... Even your irritating brothers seems less irritating that day...

Another year towards full adult-hood....

Another year towards being senior citizen....

*sigh*

Birthday

2007-03-16T20:03:00.000+08:00

Tml is my birthday le..

Yet i'm studying in my room

For hours.

Why am i typing like this?

Don't know.

I wanna enjoy myself!

May I?

Skin.

2007-03-13T20:19:00.000+08:00

Jus change skin.

Kinda suit my color scheme lately.

Greatly influenced by the theme and visual style of my lappy.

Nice?

Tired

2007-03-12T15:03:00.000+08:00

Its finally holidays...

Still quite tired

Perhaps becoz o the late night study.

*yawn*

still feeling sick of school

--Dead blog--

2007-02-23T22:44:00.000+08:00

Hm... Time to save my blog... =)

Anyway. i went to Indonesia, Balai with my uncles, father and my cousin to visit my grandaunt. It was not a very comfortable trip but was definitely interesting. It took us 2 hours to reach there and about 5 hours back due to the large no. of commuters. She lives at a kelong and it was some sort of wooden house. She have 3 dogs, 2 fierce and 1 docile. I don't singapore has it though... Here are some pic we took.

The docile dog

The Fierce One.

The Kelong

My uncles and my aunt. That's my father at the extreme right

My cousin and I at the Bah Ku Teh shop where we had our lunch

My grandaunt, cousin and I

Nice trip... But definitely tiring. Unwise to try this just before the school start. =)

Tired

2007-01-19T20:11:00.000+08:00

Do i have to say more?

GP today su**s. Have to present on some topic which i'm still reading abt.

Chem test rots. Have to complete it regardless of whether I study or not.

Basically, I'm still tired despite a long nap.

ARGH!!!!

2007

2007-01-02T00:12:00.000+08:00

2007's here~!!! Finally... I mean FINALLY. Can't wait to see moi frens~!!! Although i dun realli have much frens in sch, i still miss it. There's always the council, some of my classmates and of coz... XD

Went East Coast today with family. kinda fun, and satisfying. Managed to improve on my skating. Can now skate along with a bit of wriggle with my legs... Nt bad~!!

Abit tired now... Tml will nid to return to sch to help out with the OG/CG stuff. Although you guys may say that i have no life since i have to return to sch on the 2nd of jan, but to me, its a chance to socialize with frens... Guess I seem even more no life now... =P

Another long-time-no-blog...

2006-12-23T13:21:00.000+08:00

Okae. i noe this blog like super inactive, but i seriously dun feel lyk blogging the past few weeks... Busy? Nope. No mood? Perhaps... Mebbe its time to catch up~.

I bought some X'mas prezzie for some of moi frens.. For others.. Well... No $$$.. If you noticed my previous blogs... Oh well..

online assignments still left quite abit... seemingly unfinshed as always... Shld i pia??? Argh.. Lemme think abt it...

Can't wait to get to nxt yr. But also abit apprehensive. I missed moi frens... But nxt yr will be a year for devils. Argh~!!!

Long time no see

2006-12-08T20:13:00.000+08:00

Gone are the days filled with excitement, anxieties and fear... It has been quite boring lately. I kinda wish to go somewhere exciting... Like Korea, where the snow may fall. Or perhaps, Shanghai, where the wind makes you shiver right through those warm clothings. Mebbe the warmer climates of Taiwan could be the answer?

Unlike many others who are enjoyin themselves, I'm stuck in the routine of school and home. Where no excitement or whatsoever are worthy of my blog... Actualli, i'm kinda excited abt 1 thing. I'm to edit videos for the orientation. That kinda brought me back to where i begun: Sci n tech. I miss SAT. I miss the fun-filled, work-filled holidays which restrict me to onli the boundaries of computer lab3 and 4. Since secondary 2, it has been my source of free-time burner, creative lab and bonding room. I realli miss the touch of the keyboards there, the dust under the CPUs, the many Lego parts in the rusting cupboards and the problematic printer. I missed the days of happiness of winning a prestige award, the sadness of losing a competition and the gladness of friendship and support of the club members.

Now I'm assigned the job of video editing, i realli feel at home. For once. In school. In my 1 yr old sch. Although ppl had been unhappy becoz of this, i realli hope they do noe what i mean.

Lazy

2006-11-27T17:02:00.000+08:00

Growing lazy... Blehx~!!! Lately lyk no $$$ le... Hm... $pending too much? Haiz...

Went to 4e6 chalet a few day$ back. Quit fun. Although juan din go, i $till enjoy me$elf. The fir$t day i went with Ming Jun, nt much peep$ were dere. I just $lack ard, chit chatting with mei pheng and peep$. $econd day was more fun. I went there with $ui Chang. Nt much peep$ were dere when i reached. $o i played majhong with the Malay guy$. Quite weird actualli, $houting "eat", "Pong", "gang" and "game".. But neverthele$$, fun and intere$ting. And i lo$t heavily~!!! Haiz... After dat was$ bbqing the food. Me dunno how, so anyhow. End up the chicken nt cook... $ian~!!! Oh-well...

Then we had thi$ go$$ip $ection with Keet wan, Yu Mei, Michelle, $ui Chang and Clement. Quite funni coz we were lyk $o k-po... Haha~~~ It was pretty fun to catch up with thing$ happening in $wi$$. Then we proceed to $care each other with gho$t $torie$. The gal$ were lyk $o $cared. $o i nvr got ard a$king abt Bi$han MRT... Hmmm.... $hall do dat $ome day...

Kinda mi$$ $wi$$ le...

ARGH~~!!!

2006-11-18T22:00:00.000+08:00

Okay. i found my booklet in my brothers' room. First. What is it doing there? Does he plans to go to my school? *gasp* But anyway, even though i found the booklet, even though i did all the pages already, i couldn't get the alignment right. "OH Sh*t" The printing will just stop at some line and i can't seem to get it away. ARGH~!!! Anyone? Help~!!!!

Orientation 07

2006-11-16T11:21:00.000+08:00

Haiz... jia lat.. my file got this wonderfully big hole that all my stuff drop out... I think i lost last yr orientation booklet.... SIANZ~!!!!

Pls help me if you can? Like pass me your last yr orientation booklet? Pls?

What.

2006-10-29T22:40:00.000+08:00

Excuses. Is that all we are capable of?

Escape. Is that all we want?

Silence. Is that the ideal situation?

Peace. Is that as far as we think it is?

There's alot to ponder over, alot to be discover. But, are we willing to?

Surprise surprise.

2006-10-27T19:57:00.000+08:00

My Perspectives.

Before the previous blog, nobodi took notice of my blog. I nvr receive so mani comments abt my blog before. Not even when i was down and needed somebody to comfort me. But now, when i finalli commented on some people whom i disagree with, attention are now turned towards me. How surprising.

I dun mind to be commented. But to the extent of being insulted is y someone i assume i do not know (coz i dun recognise the name) is more than what i can bear.

To Jean:

I do not recognise your name. And if you are my friend, i believe that you would understand my blog more than anyone else. So i guess you are not a friend of mine. Perhaps you din read my blog too carefully or you were too emotional. I clearly state that i do not speak up because he is my bf. I will speak up if it happens to any body else. I assume you are a leader yourself coz if u say that I'm a bad leader, then you must be a even better one. If not, then i suggest you not to comment. But if you are a better leader, wld you condemn me before understanding me further? Put yourself in my shoe. Think about it.

To my class 0612c:

It has come to my attention that my previous blog was being printed out, and discussed over. I wonder. How would my comment affect you if previously my comments never did matter to you. I assume you wld treat my previous entry as any other entry, left to be ignored and perhaps, read it as if its a sci fiction. But all o the sudden, people do notice my blog. What a surprise.

As i said before, i recognise my mistake of speaking out of my position. But by speaking out of my position, I can understand more about my classmates. I can now understand why my class can never unite as one. I never mean hostitality but what i get in return for my comment are the harsh replies.

Think about it.

I spoke. So what?

2006-10-25T16:40:00.000+08:00

To IJ042: Some of you guys may disagree for what i did, but to some others, what i'm doing is to the defense and benefit of you peeps.

To all of IJ042: Take care~!!!

To Shao Wen: You may disagree with me, but i hope we do remain as friends afterall.

Ok. I admit. What i did today was realli out of my position. But to watch such injust unfold right in front of me is too much for me to bear. To those who wasn't there, let me describe what happened.

When i got to their table, Mingli was preparing to leave, during which she mentioned to her grp that she'll send her OP slides to Tiha to compile. She also mentioned that she'll be out for the day, presumely which her friends. Then Ben, in turn,was given a dressing down for reasons which i know but will not say as it will be again out of my position if i do speak of it. He was then given a time at which he was to send his report to Tiha. However, like Mingli, he'll be out for the day. But unlike Mingli, he is not able to send in his report on time. There were already arguments and what i was seeing then was injust. That when i came in.

I said that it was not fair that the grp is against Ben going out but not against Mingli going out. With Shao Wen emphasizing on the word "prioritise", i felt that it was super unfair to Ben. IJ042 may think that I speaking on the behalf of Ben as he's my bf. But pls allow me to make this clear. I do not speak from a bias point of view. instead, i spoke in terms of a third party who is not involve in the "fight" in any way.

Look at it in Ben's shoes, he was told to redo the slides he was told to complete. He had to redo as it was lacking in terms of contents, but which he was not told to do. For his going out, IJ042 was very much against. Why? Because of his inability to pass the slides to Tiha on time? It was only a misfortune that he did not anticipate such unclear instructions that will later cause him to redo his slides. It was only a misfortune that he wasn't able to make it for the time set by Tiha. Why blame him?

Prioritise. I hear you speak. But why tell him? Why not say that to other group members? When they cld call for meeting anytime they want, at their own preferences, at their own schedule but without considering Ben's. From what i see, IJ042 is a case of splinter groups. Leader. Are you still a leader if you sow discord instead of solving differences? Are you still a leader if you talk behind someone's back?

If not for Yasmin, i wld nvr know that you are such a leader. A leader who will ignore the welfare of your own members for the benefit of your friends. A leader who put so much distances between you and your members that problems in your group do not surface to you.

I wasn't that much against you till i saw it for myself today. Previously, i was not even when i heard so much abt you frm Ben as i knew that some things are not the same when told by a first party. But when i saw it today, i was totally disgusted by your actions.

When i, a leader see such injust in a grp, i, a leader do not ignore but come in defense for the wounded.

fake

2006-10-24T23:55:00.000+08:00

i'm not sure abt it now... Is it all fake? All but a fantasy, a dream, a desire?

I passed my promo with 2 H2, 3H1. Not bad~!!! But den... how could i onli aim for a pass?? Nope~! I'm gonna PIA nxt year and IJC wouldn't know me den... Muhahaha~~

Budden, its easi to say but not easi to do.. I guess that's where my determination comes in~! >.< What an "OMGosh~!"

Happiness???

2006-10-11T17:08:00.000+08:00

are we happi for long? or are we not?

I'm happi dat i passed my physics promo, though nt well but still, a pass. but my chinese screwed up, for some idiotic reason. yucks~

tired,

2006-10-10T20:49:00.000+08:00

Thrown behind the wall, to be left ignored by the crowds.
Thrown into the weeds, to be left unseen by the people.

I dun realli noe wad to do... I feel a kinda stress... The feeling of being torn apart. Is it because he's nvr in my position? That's y he nvr feel the pain? Or is he jus blind to it? Such fascinating emotions, but yet... Can't anyone share it with mE???

True. There's nvr a perfect fit. There will nvr be. But we always look for the perfect things in life. Irony.

L.O.V.E

2006-10-08T12:12:00.000+08:00

Mebbe its my fault. Mebbe its his fault. Or mebbe its our fault. But faults can be make up for. Faults can be detected and be understood. But why do i feel so sad yet so guilty at the same time?

Contacting him, wondering about him, doing things for him have become a part of my life. I used to juggle all these with my academics, my CCAs. But now after our promos, i have nothing else to distract myself from him. I once thought that after our promos we would probably have more time together, but this is still a thought, a dream, a fantasy...

He's ever so busy. Busy with his friends, busy with his family events, busy with his health. But never me. I shop alone in the streets of Orchard Road, looking at couples hugging each other, couples shopping together, couples holding hands, yet i wonder how's he doing with his friends, with his family.

I feel so alone. So isolated. I had given up my chance for a more expanded social circle for him and yet...

I dun think he miss me lyk he say. How on Earth do you miss a person if you are kept busy all day long? I cherish and look forward to every meeting, but, does he?

I think he is finally gotten sick of me. So i guess the end is not far afterall... But, wad abt me? Has he thought of my feelings? He hasn't felt wad i feel. I wish he would understand me for once. I wish he would feel what i feel. But all these are wishes... All these do not have to come true for me...

Small. Weak. Tears. These are wad i feel now. Where's my protector? I do not know. Mebbe he's with his friends again. Enjoying his day. Not thinking abt me. Mebbe...

Sleep

2006-09-22T14:05:00.000+08:00

I slept at 3.30am this morning. Mebbe its the coffee that is causing my eyes to stick wide open. Mebbe its because of my ever-extensive to-do list that's making my stress hormones go round and round. Or mebbe... I have too much to think about...

Things may seems normal... Everything may seem fine... But deep down, I continue to wonder, continue to ponder. What is the future like? Would i be like the woman in that beautiful car, wearing wonderful working suits, working with people who are making news everyday? Or would i be the mother hitting her child at the station, looking all tired and stressed? The future is so unpredictable, yet real. It seems so blur and uncertain...

I wonder...

The wall

2006-09-21T21:52:00.000+08:00

Life is like a wall. Hard. Rough. Cold. Emotionless. Unfeeling

They say life is not fair. I say life is dark. Like the blackness of the night. The color of nothing.

They say life is rough. Like the sand on a lonely beach. Like the rock in the bottomless sea.

I tried sliding my palm against the wall. Again and again. Scratches. Blood. But no pain.

I tired hammering the wall with my fist. Again and Again. Bruise. Blood. But no pain.

Is there realli no pain? Or is it that i can't feel the pain?

I can't feel. Like a song, my heart sings sorrowfully. Like a widow, my heart weeps.

Like a well, the sadness sank deep. Like a river, my tears flow.

My brain tells me to stop hurting myself. Yet, my heart tells me to carry on.

Stopping my physical hurtings. Only to feel the pain in my heart.

I tried to listen to my brain. Yet, I'm masked by the echos of my heart.

Echos. My heart died. Leaving only echos.

I revive my heart on hope. Yet, how much hope do i have to give?

I revive my heart on hope. Yet, how much pain can hope support?

I'm tired. I'm scared. The future seems bleak.

I'm frightened.

Ironies in our life

2006-09-20T17:06:00.000+08:00

Ironies of our life.

Life all begins with birth. Life all ends with death. After a birth, it is evitable that a death will follow. To celebrate a birth when we all know that a death would be near. Is that irony? To be sad when a death came by. Is that yet another irony. Our lives are full of ironies. We live to die. We die to live (which some ppl believe in). We eat to s**t, we s**t to eat. We created air-con for a cooler room, yet the world outside gets warmer everyday. We work so hard for so long, yet for so long our hard work do not get recognise. Steve Irwin work so hard to save the wildlife, yet after his death the wildlife he tried to save gets hurt. Diamond aren't suppose to last forever. Friendship and love too. But we are striving to buy diamonds, struggling to keep in touch with all our friends, struggling to maintain a happiness with our love ones. We marry to stay with our love one forever, yet many of us are divorcing.

Ironies. Ironies. Ironies.

Changes

2006-09-15T21:33:00.000+08:00

What can happen in one week? What can happen in one day? What can happen in one hour? What can happen in one minute? What can happen in one second? Alot. Alot alot. In one week, you can run every morning and lose a few kilograms. In one day, you can read books and gain unmeasurable amount of knowledge. In one hour, you can fly a kite and be completely relaxed. In one minute, you can change an answer on your script, converting a fail to a pass. On one second, you can push a kid out of an oncoming car, saving an innocent kid who have the possiblilty to be the next Einstein.

Changes. What changes can you make for yourself and for others? Try it out and you'll see~!

Enough?

2006-09-06T22:13:00.000+08:00

How much is enough? How much do we know that it is finally enough? Or never will be enough? Enough. Wad is it? Measurable or not? Touch-able? See-able? Feel-able?

Frostbite

2006-09-01T20:40:00.000+08:00

Singapore celebrated Teachers' Day yesterday. Schools were conducted half day, or totally not. Celebrations were in the air as ex-students return to their ala mater, stage full of performers and presents presented. Okae. This sounds lyk a news report. Mebbe that's the result of doing PW too much...

Yesterday was a real busy day! In IJC, there were lots of celebrations, lots of performances (though not veri gd, veri still... Good effort!! ) Then, me, juan and jian de rushed back to Swiss Cottage to see our ex-teachers. It was a veri nice kinda feeling. I had to rushed alot as IJC released us alot later den other sch. My ex-classmates were already waiting for us when i arrived. To reduce their waiting time, i had to run alot. I met Mr. Wee, Mrs. Heng, Mr. Ravi,ms. Lim Lay Har and Mr Lim. Mr Lim had resigned. For wad reasons i dunno... I was quite disappointed when i heard that, tot he would make a good teacher.... Rushing to Com Lab 4 (Juniors are getting ready for NJRC Competition Interview), i wished them luck and heard that Mr Lim was in e coffee shop. Thus, i rushed all the way again. I think he was quite surprised to receive his present.... =) )

Finally, i met some of my ex-classmates ( Keet wan, Wee Wee, Jian de, Sui chang, Ping han, Jing Yi, Clement, Ian) for lunch. I'm glad we were still friends~! We went for KFC and ordered family meal. I din real enjoy the food (coz abit sick of all the oil and stuff... ) but enjoy e time spent there. It wasn't easy to come together as wad we used to be, but i'm glad everyone made effort. After the superb lunch, Ping han, Clement, Jinye had to go for some stuff. ian left too. The rest then went for a walk in JP. I had to go half way thru coz Ben was callin me to meet his frens. As i had nth much to do there, I excuse myself n went off....

So i met his frens. They were veri friendly, veri joyful kinda person. Each got their own style, their own way of doin things, but its heartening to see everyone being involved in some way. =) Realli nice ppl... But wad a movie~!!! Frostbite... is realli frostbite... Everything is lyk so lame... So... nto funni... Yucky. Bloody. Totally a nono... in addition, its in Swedish.. So... u have to read e subtitles... totally... Oh my goodness...

But still i enjoyed my time there. How come 12C can nvr be lyk dat? onli 23 ppl... yet... we are as seperated as 23 individuals... haiz.. Wad a big difference~!!!

Going

2006-08-29T22:30:00.000+08:00

I don't find the attractiveness in my school anymore. i miss Swiss Cottage, i miss the life there. I miss my frens. and my teachers...

how do u find joy in life if u r compelled to report in a place early in the morning, every week day without fail (unless u have holidays...) I felt kinda sad. It seems that there's nothing in dere to attract me even more. Life is nothing but assignments, tests, lectures and tutorials.. Plus a lot of sacarsm, hypocrites and bitches.... So sad...

Haiz.. My life seems to be of nothing but academics. I lyk to go for bowling. I wun mind taking up pistol... But.. time? space? freedom? All these, i'm unsure of...

A room of Idiots. A school of hypocrites. A world of bitches.

2006-08-23T22:09:00.000+08:00

Let me talk! Listen to me and shut up for a moment.

Lately, i've been feeling quite down. I suppose its down to stress and stuff. Mebbe you guys will say that this is life and everyone is going through it. But can't one take a breather once in a while? Life? I always hope for a some place on earth where one can experience peace, love and harmony. But, i guess the earth cannot even spare me a metre cube of land. Hope? Isn't life full of hope? Isn't life is about hope? But what's hope when everything is dashed right in front of you? When friends you thought to be crush you like what they will do to a useless piece of paper? When people you thought as strangers back stabs you? When fellow human beings treat you as a unfeeling robot of no sense?

"What is hope?"

I was feeling extremely down today, i had totally enough of school. Enough of my life. Life to me then was nothing but work. Nothing but stress. Nothing but expectations. Nothing. I felt lethargic. I felt like stepping out of the school gate then and forever. I felt like... death. I could barely control myself. Barely keep myself from crying. Barely keep myself from insanity. Barely. I needed an outlet. I needed space. I needed air. I needed support. But i guess nobody knew of my needs. Nobody wanted to really help me. Nobody wanted to give me an outlet, give me space, give me air, give me support. Nobody.

Today, during PW, the last of the day's lessons, i was on the verge of breaking, on the verge of stepping out of the school, on the verge of death. I thought nothing could stop me then. I thought nobody would care. I thought that nothing no longer matters to me. Nothing.

As i sat there controlling me tears, I wanted an outlet. A break. A breather. Asking for a permission to skip today's meeting, I waited there, full of hope. But hopes are eventually dashed. Hopes are eventually washed down the dirty drain, trampled on, treated as litter. Hope. Gone.

They say its my responsibility. They say its my commitment. They say i should have forseen that. My hopes dashed, replaced by total sadness, total disappointment, Hopeof almost, fury, madness. Self-control? What was self-control then? It was about blinking back tears, swallowing my pride, reminding myself to breathe. I was so scared that I would forget to breathe, so scared that i would go mad. So scared of everything. Of me hoping, of me needing, of me slapping them, crushing them like what they did to my hope.

Hope? What's hope now? People tell me to relax. To chill. Its not easy to even step backwards. To even let go my work of which people around me keep reminding me of. (Note. I said "let go", which suggest its for a period of time. If i wanted to say to ignore my work, i would have say "abandon".) Human? Are Human a feeling creature? Do they feel pain? Are they all that self- centered? That unfeeling?

I feel pain. Honestly. I never felt as despaired as before. I always thought that if i do not harm a person, i would not be harmed. I alway thought that if i do not hurt, i would not be hurt. But alas, that was never a case.

Hope? Should i continue to hope and risk them being smashed right again? Should i? I'm ready to give up hoping. I want to protect myself from all these pain i've been going through. I want to be selfish for once. To be self-centered. To be allowed a breather.

1st National CL Weblog Competition (iBlog 2006) Prize-giving Ceremony

2006-08-19T22:20:00.000+08:00

After rehearsing for several days after school, the big day was finally here. Waking up at 6.30am, i got myself ready and made my way to IJC. Although it was early in the morning on a Saturday, I felt amazingly energetic even though i was quite sure that i do not wan to go school.

Then things start to speed up by the time i stepped into the school...

First, it was a trip to LT4, the venue of the ceremony. Participating students came early and we had to start ushering them in. Being e one hu's was dere most of e time, i had to take the lead in guiding these students into their designated seats. Meanwhile, LT4 itself was as warm as an oven since the air-con was unfortunately spoilt. When the LT4 was quite occupied, the order to change the venue came. And it was a logistic horror.

After guiding most of these students out to the foyer, i rushed down to LT3 as i was told to do so. Helping those strong guys in moving those chairs and stuff outside, i tried to reassign the designated seats for the schools and VIPs. Recalling and adapting some of the ways the teacher-in-charge handled the ones in LT4, Marcus aided me in replacing the seats label. While these are being done, students started to swell in and i had to start my ushering job again...

Usher students to seats.
Finding seats for teachers.
Usher GOH to stage and back again X2.
Usher GOH to exit and to foyer for refreshments.

***

Ushering the GOh was not fun. Quite boring actually... But i was quite honoured to do so. Seeing the way Ms. Yeo fussed over him, i think he's quite a big character... So honoured~!!! =) And his Chinese quite good too~!!! I think he was being very gentlemently and tactful when he said that Ms. Yeo was trying to learn Chinese and had done a good job in it as Ms. Yeo wasn't that proficient in spoken Chinese.

Overall, I think that the programme can be improved. The NMA's video was not their standard, given that i was once awed by one of their previous creations. The PA group was also not up to their standard, given that i witnessed their strength during events such as Racial Harmony Anchor Event and Bodi Wadmi 2006. The efficiency of the school can be improved. For example, if they claimed they on the aircon at 8am, wun it be betta for them if they send someone to check on the aircon to see whether its working anot.? Ok. Mebbe council shld do e job, but if they noe the frequency of such breakdowns in the school's LT (given that most students attend lectures in up to 2 LTs), and such an important guest was coming... Well, things can be improved.

I think we council did a good job today. I witnessed the efficiency of the council in changing the venue, the way we handled the crowd and the way we handled the teachers.... i think we did a great job~!!!

Cheers for council~!!!!

Stressed

2006-08-17T23:50:00.000+08:00

Its all too easy to say "relax" to a person hu's having stress, but to be relaxed while having stress yourself is not an easy task.

This week, I was bombarded with alot of work, be it PW, tutorials, assignment and council. In an attempt to improve on my EoM, i read abt this article, and i fully agree with it...

'Teach less, learn more' yet to be achieved
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Straits TimesEnglish(c) 2005
Singapore Press Holdings Limited

IT HAS been almost nine months since Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong said 'we've got to teach less so that our students can learn more'. I am curious as to how the idea has taken off.

Hailing from one of Singapore's 17 junior colleges, my experience is that not much has changed. Even though school hours have been reduced (for my college, at least), the workload has not got any lighter.

Assignments and tutorials take up most of our free time; weekends are seldom spared. It is no wonder then that most of my classmates have stopped trying to keep up with the schoolwork.

For a person who does his homework religiously and tries to keep up with school, any free time would be welcomed as a break, and is unlikely to be spent pursuing even more knowledge.

A teacher once said: 'Many children come to us naturally creative and curious, with a sense of wonder and excitement, only to be turned off shortly after they start school.'
I understand that junior-college teachers have a syllabus to finish in two years. As much as they may want us to have a meaningful education, they have to complete the syllabus in time for the examinations.

To go beyond conventional teaching methods would be too much of a hassle, and might also be deemed too risky.

The road to teaching less, learning more is not a smooth one; perhaps much courage is needed for those involved. And until we actually take that 'leap of faith', as my maths teacher would put it when solving problems, it's back to the tutorials for me.

Istyana Putri Ibrahim (Miss)

I completely agrewe with her~!!! I tried my best to finish my work, but everything jus pile up... Its not that i'm lazy... but... I jus can't do it!!! I'm not up to the stage whereby I'll give up on completing my work, but i can see that it will happen to me, someday, somehow...

Bored~!

2006-08-13T22:37:00.000+08:00

Todae was such a boring day~!!! Mebbe that's becoz i was boring too... Blehx~! Hm... I slpt almost the whole day off, tried doing my mind maps for Chemistry.. but ended up stopping at Chemical Bonding Part Two... I will continue my mind maps later on... YuCky MinDMaPs~!!! But hey! They help!!! =)

I wonder how Ben spent his day...

Drunk...

2006-08-12T20:22:00.000+08:00

ChoColate ChIpS IcE-CrEaM~!!! Mmmm.... YummY!!! I know ppl lyk Ms. Lee will kill me but still the temptation of chocolate ice-cream is too great for me to resist~!!! =)

Hm.. Spent the whole day doing nth but slping, eating, watching tv and stuff... I can say i touched nothing yucky such as assignment, tutorials or work. But tml... tml i will do them~! I think i will start drawing mindmaps for my chemistry, then my maths. =)

Cheers~!!!

StreSs~!!!

2006-08-11T21:42:00.000+08:00

Its gettimg too hot here~!!! Its STEAMING~!!! And its getting scorching~!!! Dun get me wrong, I'm toking about school life. Its realli getting too much in here, with assignments, tutorials piling up, council getting up in the queue and everything else... I'm not sure whether i shld do this to myself... Haiz~~!!!!

One week passed by and yet, even with 3 days off the 5 day, i dun feel the least less stress... WHY!?!? I even went for retail therapy yet nothing seems to work... Its lyk the world is eating me up... and yet it feels lyk pure stretching... As in stretched from head to toe, side to side... =( ULTIMATE SADNESS!!!

Fun and relaxing~!!!

2006-08-09T13:32:00.000+08:00

Todae is National Day~!!! Which means that today and tml no school~!! Woohoo~!!! Finally there's time for me to catch up with myself... Phew~!

Yesterdae was onli a half day. So Yasmin, Benjamin and i went to watch 'Click'. It was a veri touching show... Not sad, but touching. Enough to make me cry till my nose get stuck and Ben's sleeve to be wet. =) I mean Hey~! Let's jus let our hair down (literalli) and jus let our feelings all out~! Truthfulli speaking, i stongly suspect that at least 75% of the whole Cathay Building Theatre One of 3.20pm , Click cried. Haiz... I love tear jerkers~!!!

After all these, we went shopping. Me for my white jacket, Yasmin for her fren's birthday prezzie. After walking for a long time along Orchard Road, Yasmin finalli found a nice looking shirt for her fren, with a nice looking necklace. Wow~~!!!

When we were ending our shopping trip, walking towards Far East, where Yasmin was supposed to meet her father, we saw this stall selling sweaters~!!! Haha~ as if things wld come walking their way towards me, i saw my wonderful white jacket there, selling for $15. Yasmin got one too, a green one. Cheers~!!!

Then it was time to go marina bay to watch the fireworks. Calling Kailin, Shu juan and also frm Keet Wan, we made a deal to meet Keet Wan at one of the fireboat shop. =) Me, Ben and Kailin arrived first and we were 'served' by Keet Wan's frens. It was kinda weird to sit amidst unknown ppl and to get served by them at the same time. Nice food though~!!!

Soon after Shu Juan's arrival, it was already time for us to go get ready for the arrival of fireworks~!!!! It was dark where we were all going. Time past so fast and it was already showtime for the fireworks.

They were so big and beautiful~! Woohoo~!!! It was like entering from outside into Earth, into a new era... A whole new world~!!!

Back!

2006-08-08T09:33:00.000+08:00

Hi guys~! I'm back~! K. i'm so sorry that i stopped my updates so suddenly and for such a long time... Things have been coming up hectic for me and i lost my enthusiasm for blogging. But now, I'm back~! =)

Hm... To update you guys, i'm no longer alone.. as in... You know~! =) And my studies aren't going too well for me... so i think its time for me to realli start studying... Blehx~!!! Yucky things~! But i dun realli have a choice huh.

Council isn't going too good, there are so much more to be done and my committee (project management) is going through a patch... But i guess we'll work it out. =) Always look on the bright sde of life~!

As for my project work, i think i am assigned to wonderful grp mates and friends. Hashwin, Ang Yun. Zhi wen and Atikah, Luv ya! And wOnDeRfUlLy, i was elected as their groupleader about a few months back... It isn't smooth sailing as i foreseen it before... My members are so good that i feel that i am not doing them justice~! Haiz... Stressful lar~!

Now, i guess i realli have to settle down for my studies. My promo is coming in a few weeks time and is RealLi scari~!!! Ah... Haiz...

Today's the eve of National Day and i'm now bloggin in M1-1... with my 'distraction' and my best friends... =) Smilex! X)

Love,
Xinyi

Revisions...

2006-06-14T21:02:00.000+08:00

haiz... I'm getting abit stress... over nt havin enough time to study... wonder if i nid to stay up lae to finish up my econs? haiz... Why can't my life be easy going n nt dat stressful? Coz it wun be life? goodness...

Human

2006-06-10T12:42:00.000+08:00

Since the 8th, i'd been away at Kota Tinggi (http://www.kota-rainforest.com.my/race.shtml) for council leadership camp. There, i experience alot of new stuff, be it to bathe with lots of peeps in a single huge shower area, or to eat while waging a never-ceasing war with the house-flies, or even to have your arms covered with toothpaste which stings and cool you at the same time. But there's one thing which will remain firm in my mind, no matter wad.

At this point at night, we are supposed to do this freefall thingy, consisting of one person standing on the board 1.6m above ground, with a grp of people forming a stretcher lyk thingy down dere to catch e person falling frm above. This is supposed to test your confidence and alertness. There was this person(shall not disclose sex here) who went up and did a dangerous thing. This person here kneel before falling, which somehow cause a wrong distribution of weight down at the supporters. But the supporters were too.. somehow distracted (?) So there was alot of flaws in this fall... Expectedly, accident happened and the person fall hard onto the ground. But all was fine when this person here remains okay, being able to move around freely.

I was one of the supporters. When this happened, i wasn't shock. I wasn't even blaming anybody. I wasn't even trying to do anything emotional. However, my fren was. She was blaming herself for wad had happend, coz she had released her hands under the unexpected distribution of weight upon her. As a fren, i tried consoling her. To me, consoling not onli consist of saying that she's nt at fault or anything but to explain why this happened and what will arise from such things. Experienced this activity before in my secondary school, where the platform was even higher, i tok her out while walking towards the lit areas.

Then dere was this gal here who overheard me. Admittedly, i am not as close to her as to the one who was blaming herself. But she tot that i was trying to pinpoint people to blame, in other words, pushing the blame to somebody. She cut me off, rudely. Then said that i shldn't pinpoint, accusingly. I was lyk so shocked. Pinpoint people? Nvr my style. Wad kind of fren is she if she thinks that i'm dat kind? When she mentioned this to the advisors and the rest of e grp, fortunately nt mentioning my name, i was feeling so accused. I tried to ignore this feeling but... it jus feel so wrong... I was trying to analyse the situation for my fren so that she wouldn't be so hard on herself and its wrong(!)?

Upon discussing with my self-blaming fren, i realised that she too felt accused. Then... i had alot of things to think abt...

She, as a leader, shld nt jump to conclusions that fast. She shld try to listen us out before doin anything drastic, lyk mentioning it to the advisors. Does she trust me? I do not know.

AS a leader for so long, accusing people was never my style. I always try to analyse things, to solve problems fast, for the benefit for everyone. I do not wish for anyone to blame others or themselves for wad had happend. I only want them to have the full picture of what happened, to the best that i can give, scientifically or psychologically.

In any case, pls hear me out before condemning me. I will nt let anybody down. But if you onli want to hear wad u want to hear, then do nt condemn me, for it is your choice, not mine.

Yay!!!

2006-06-02T22:24:00.000+08:00

Tml going out with yu jia, ting, kai lin, and juan~~~ Woohoo... Finalli... Can finalli meet dem n have a whole dae of fun~!!!

Dun wish to type much...

Feeling a bit guilty abt nt touching my academics....

Guilty...

June Break(?)

2006-05-28T20:16:00.000+08:00

Finalli its june holis le~ but lyk no diff frm norm sch days lehx... 1st wk is taken up by subject tutors, second wk by council for council camp... Left onli 2 wks... den end of holi gt summer test... so nid to prepare 4 them during the 2 weeks... Holiday? Yar~ Its a break...

Tired...

Class outing?

2006-05-14T20:25:00.000+08:00

It was a rainy Saturday which people wun usuali wan to stay outdoors. But for me, i was out since morning.

First, it was a stop at clementi to meet Ben. Den it was a stop at Lavender to pei him to go update his passport. The queue dere was realli llllloooooonnnnnnggggg. Realli veri llllloooooonnnnnggggg.... We saw e queue n jus left e building. It was jus too much a way to spend a morning....

We walked frm dere to bugis to have lunch @ dis kopi tium (hawker centre).. I had dis carrot cake which was realli delicious~!!!! (Guys go check it out when u r ard dat area~!) Den we jus slack ard... in dis arcade which is def HHHHUUUUGGGEEE. Hm... slacked lyk 15 mins (?) before we left for the bus.

Den we reached bedok ard 12.30? den we hung ard again... went to the arcade before going to mrt to wait.. den ended up we wait until cannot jiu make a move first to go cycle first.

rainy rainy day... while cycling, we dirtied our shirts by splashing the water (on the grnd).. haiz.. sian abit... den cycle dunno how long before doing a u-turn back to meet the guys.

hm.. all in all, i din get to cycle much with the class... but i enjoyed the steamboat thingy aft all those cycling

We went to marina south for steamboat. Although its def unhealthy (judging by the amt o butter we used), its a grt dinner to have! E onli thingy nt so nice is that i had to return home even before everthing ends... haiz... y???

i'll look forward to a class chalet, when i finalli have no curfew, finalli have freedom... :P yay~!

"Be without you"

2006-05-12T22:06:00.000+08:00

"Be Without You"

MARY J BLIGE

I wanna be with you, gotta be with you, need to be with you

(Oh, oh, oh, oh)

I wanna be with you, gotta be with you, need to be with you

(Oh, oh, oh, oh)

Oooo (oh, oh, oh, oh) oooo

Chemistry was crazy from the get-go

Neither one of us knew why

We didn't build nothing overnight

Cuz a love like this takes some time

People swore it off as a phase

Said we can’t see tha

tNow from top to bottom

They see that we did that

(yes)

It’s so true that

(yes)

We’ve been through it

(yes)We got real sh**

(yes)

See baby we been...

Too strong for too long

(and I can’t be without you baby)

And I’ll be waiting up until you get home

(cuz I can’t sleep without you baby)

Anybody who’s ever loved, ya know just what I feel

Too hard to fake it, nothing can replace it

Call the radio if you just can’t be without your baby

I got a question for ya

See I already know the answer

But still I wanna ask you

Would you lie?

(no)

Make me cry?

(no)

Do somethin’ behind my back and then try to cover it up?

Well, neither would I, baby

My love is only your love

(yes)

I’ll be faithful

(yes)

I’m for real

(yes)

And with us you’ll always know the deal

We’ve been...

Too strong for too long

(and I can’t be without you baby)

And I’ll be waiting up until you get home

(cuz I can’t sleep without you baby)

Anybody who’s ever loved, ya know just what I feel

Too hard to fake it, nothing can replace it

Call the radio if you just can’t be without your baby

See this is real talk

I’m always stay

(no matter what)

Good or bad

(thick and thin)

Right or wrong

(all day everyday)

Now if you’re down on love or don’t believe

This ain’t for you (no, this ain’t for you)

And if you got it deep in your heart

And deep down you know that it’s true

(come on, come on, come on)

Well, let me see you put your hands up

(hands up)

Fellas tell your lady she’s the one

(fellas tell your lady she’s the one, oh)

Put your hands up

(hands up)

Ladies let him know he's got your love

Look him right in his eyes and tell him

We’ve been...

Too strong for too long

(and I can’t be without you baby)

And I’ll be waiting up until you get home

(cuz I can’t sleep without you baby)

Anybody who’s ever loved, ya know just what I feel

Too hard to fake it, nothing can replace it

Call the radio if you just can’t be without your baby

Heeeeeeeeeeeey Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh

I wanna be with you, gotta be with you, need to be with you

http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/maryjblige/bewithoutyou.html

The people and the environment

2006-05-08T21:37:00.000+08:00

Let's talk about this.

About people suiting the envrionment and environment suiting people.

For the first case, some people may think that they had been asked too much of. Changing own way of doin things has never been easy but it seems that its e only way to get things thru. Its easier to change one tree den to change the whole forest. Similarly, its easier to change one person's way den to change the whole community's way of doin things. However, one should never keep resorting to this in order to make things easy. There shld always b a distinguishable difference and uniqueness dat one should possess. One should never keep on following the crowd. Strike out and prove yourself!!!

But then again, isn't it a bit too much to ask for if one hope for the environment to suit him/her? Things in big scale is never a simple affair. Life by itself is already that complicate, why make things more complicated than they already are?

Its difficult to strike the correct balance between the two but as Man, we'll always work towards utopia. Let's work together towards this "utopia"~!!!

14 min 37 secs,

2006-05-02T20:35:00.000+08:00

Feelin so happi todae~

First time i ran 14min 37 secs timing for 2.4km... First Time lehx~~!!!! Woo-hoo~!!!

Haha~ so proud of myself~~~ Yay~~!!!

Hm... lately no time blog le... so think mus restrict blogging time to once a week... Bo bian lar~ Realli no time... Council is taking up hell lots of time n bowling competition is drawing closer each day n i haven train....

Haiz...

Anyway, gave ben his birthdae prezzie todae... Was he touched??? haha~ dunno lehx... Although the prezzie was veri simple, it took me a whole few hours doin it... Let's c... frm 9 pm all the way till... 11pm??? dat's lyk 2 hours??? E packaging killed me lar~~~ Straws are indeed a veri complicated science.... Trust me.

Ben had better appreciate his prezzie... Or else....

Council????

2006-04-24T21:47:00.000+08:00

Me in Council le~!!! Fast horz~ Din realli expect to get in n din expect to b... so involved...

Goodness~!

Arhx~ In le lehx~!!!

Now dey wan us to campaign to get into Exco... Think i can make it? Heh hehx...

I'll try my best lar~!!! Yay~!!!

K. Now for serious stuff.

Hm... Lately, i had dis tok with one of my classmates n i had to agree with him. 0612C can nvr b united.

Peeps frm 0612C, i think u noe hu i'm tokin abt.

Lyk i sae before, wad we can do is to forget old diff n work as a class. Happi anot, we'll b stuck together for a year plus. Why nt make e most out of it??? I seriously dun think dat we wld wan a division within e class ba?

Wad abt the United we stand Divided we fall thingy????

Can u guys jus stop being so narrow minded and jus start all over again????

Goodness lar~ Lyk small kids lyk dat lor... Wad abt those primary sch days when we formed 'gangs' abt hu to befriend n hu to nt befriend??? So kiddy lar~!!!

I think we have alot to work on...

Tanned

2006-04-23T21:44:00.000+08:00

My nose hurts~!!! And i'm nt afraid of heights le~!!! Yay~!!!!

I completed e rock wall, i completed e high bouldering wall, i'm nt afraid of heights le~!!!!

It was a veri fun camp to start with. Although things were pretty strict there and we had to keep to time-lines often, camping was nvr that fun, The first day we arrived there, we played the high elements and flying fox and stuff. Although it's HIGH elements, I nvr enjoy myself that much before. I found myself learning more abt myself...

Challenging oneself is always the worse thing, but also e best thing. Worst thing becoz u noe wads e 'un-do-ables' for urself n u r challenging e limits directly. Best thing becoz all u nid to do is to take e first step n it'll b all over.

I did the absailing for e first time in my life n i learnt much. I was afraid of height. I climb all e way up n i was already shaking lyk hell. But den, aft much waiting (all thanks to Ang Yun :P) i grew used to the height n was ok ok le.When it was finalli my turn (=P), i felt shaky again in my legs. But i ignore all my 'conscious' thoughts and focus on the instructor. Wadeva he says, i listen and follow. I force myself to sit outwards, force myself nt to look down, n force myself to let myself walk down... Took lots of self-discipline and determination. When i finalli moved my baby steps, i found that it was realli fun, and definitely nt scari. The instructor shouted "enjoy e scenery while u can~!" and i was lyk "orhx"... haha~ Nice rite? Nt bad lar... If i could look over into the sea nearby, that will be even betta. =P

Yay~

Hm... I love the feelin of unity in class... Although there had been differences and disagreements, the unity is there~!!! Woo-hoo~!!!

Okae... alot of things haven do.. nid to work le~~!!! haiz... Sian

I'll get back to dis later ba? yeah~

Camping le~!!!

2006-04-20T21:13:00.000+08:00

Yay~!!! Tml go camp le~!!! Muhahaha... Finalli can go belay ppl le... Make ppl hang there sing twinkle twinkle lil stars... :P

Haven pack yet... Just finished writing PI and sending it to ST. :P Packing soon~!!!

Veri tired... guess i'll be sleeping earli tonite den... Nt much energy left to type blog too... :(

nitez~!

Damn tired

2006-04-18T23:37:00.000+08:00

I dun care if i sound crude or rude here but i'm jus damn tired...

I haven eaten, i still have hw to do, i'm feelin damn exhausted, there's nth i wanna do more than to slp.

I'm jus damn exhausted.

Jus finished PI and now's the council posters...

I think i cannot take it le...

Damn Damn Damn Tired

My turn le...

2006-04-16T18:30:00.000+08:00

haiz... My turn to get fever le... Felt damn tired todae... For e whole dae in fact... slept frm nite to morn, morn to afternoon, afternoon to evening... Sianz~

Hit 38.6 degrees den i realli cannot take it le... ate panadol n slept even more... Haiz... Din do much work todae.. haiz... later still hab to do council profile form.. den posters...

Haiz... Hope e fever wun come back le..

no reason gt reason get fever... sianz~

51st post~!!!

2006-04-15T20:54:00.000+08:00

Dis is my 51st post le~!! Woo hoo~!!!

Ang yun gt himself into hospital~!!!! under observation for at most 24 hours... or so he say... I hope he gets well lar~!!! Seems damn serious to me... Stomachache for so long lar... since e bowling training on wednesday... dats lyk so long lor~~~ k... seems lyk i shldn't put dis online... but i dun care... :P Jus jia you~~!!!

JIA YOU!!! GET WELL SOON!!!!

later go do chinese compo le... n physcis prac calculation... haiz.. homework...

n i miss bowling~

Horror Flick

2006-04-14T22:23:00.000+08:00

Actualli wanted go watch movie with cg todae de... But den cancelled coz response no good... Haiz...

Todae's arrison's birthdae~!!! Celebrated it yesterdae in btw school and e physics test. Had an ice-cream cake (swenson's--> cookies n cream~!!!) and it was simply delicious~!!! Arrison had his face smeared with his slice of cake n it looks lyk shaving cream to me... (^_^) Lots of fun for that few minutes n it was back to studying physics.. haiz~ We had dinner aft e test n it feels gr8 eating together as a class~!!! Yay~!

Happi birthdae Arrison~!!!

Ang yun's sick~! He sae he got stomach ache since bowling training n had a fever yesterdae... Doc suspects appendictis.... haiz... 0612C lyk veri quiet without him lor.. No one to tell lame jokes.. Me lame by myself no fun de..

Hope he gets well soon~!!!

Watched -Dark Waters- with MingLi n Ben todae... Its lyk on a discovery trip lar... Hm... went to Cineleisure to watch. The place is cool~!! That is if u gt the cash to spend dere lar... haha~ i shall save enough money somedae to go there n enjoy myself~!!! Had lots of fun todae... one dae.. i shall go all out n have fun... one dae~

The movie's okae. Nt bad... Seems scary when u r watching it... but when its over... its actualli an okae... probably becoz of the last part ba... which is no veri scary... nt lyk the first 2 parts... which are... frightening... I think slping tonite is no prob le... haha~

If i survived House of Wax, i shall b able to survive dis too~

Tired le. Still nid to do chinese blog... Argh... Sian...

lalala~!!!

2006-04-12T21:33:00.000+08:00

Wah... Todae clash here clash dere... Clash le Bowling with chinese broadcasting, den go and clash council meeting with the two clashed de... Wah... Den lucky the chinese broadcasting de no nid to go.. or else...

Hm... The council meeting okae lar... Quite relaxing... although at some pt of time i was lyk... feeling abit apprehensive abt the things lar.... budden me still going for it~!!! Yeah~! Seems quite fun... but with other commitments such as bowling.. haiz... dunno le lar... But me definitely going for it.

The bowling todae's fun ~~!!! although i still dunno hu is hu... nt even my own team mates. but still its quite fun... Playing with my ball seriously for the first time n i felt quite... apprehensive... haha... Managed to achieve a 142 todae... yay~!!!! highest so far... woohoo~!!!!

Council

2006-04-11T23:08:00.000+08:00

hehX hehX... got pass the interview for the council le~!! yay~~! Wish me luck to get thru e nxt one~!!! which i dunno wad it is lar...

was damn nervous when dey announce abt the release time for the result lar... 12.00pm... all e wae till 11.30 ba? Ben suddenly wan to do high-5 with me... den i did lar... den go notice board c... haha~ realli kanna lehx!!!! haha~~!!!

Budden tml my things clash until siao lehx~!!! The chinese broadcast thingy... the council meeting... the bowling training... dunno how i gonna handle tml... haiz...

Wish me luck~!!

*Thanks alot~~!!! --> juan and kailin.

Jokes

2006-04-10T22:08:00.000+08:00

I was strongly reminded of something todae...

Diff ppl have diff tolerance lvl towards jokes.

we were lyk foolin ard todae lar... den a series of funni stuff started to happen lar... den we can't resist the temptation to poke fun at the subject... but then ended up the subject nearli cried(?)

i nvr tot dis will happen in dis times. i tot all of us are already used to it. ended up its onli most of us... nvr tot dis will happen...

Haiz... I guess i'll have to toe ard more carefulli den...

Bowling~!!!

2006-04-09T22:29:00.000+08:00

Went to get my bowling ball todae with nigel n his bro, and juan... Spent the whole afternoon at Victor's bowling and bought a package deal... A "two-ball" trolley bag, a pair of shoes and a mid-high end reactive.. all at a cost of $320... Shld b good enough???

The break down:
Shoe: $45
Ball : $155
Bag: $120

Bowling... Such a BIG investment... haiz...

It was definitely a weird experience... e uncle manipulate my hand here n there, use it to poke here n there.. then ask me to throw here n there... quite fun though...

Until i plaed 2 games with the ball... Xin tong when i threw it lar... two scratches laR~!!!

i hope i get use to my ball soon...

Soon i hope~!!!

CG outing

2006-04-08T12:20:00.000+08:00

0612C econs students~!!!! 17/4 Econs test~!!! Similar to ur Graded Assignment which is to be handed in on 10/4~~!!!!

yesterdae was a tiring day.

Cg minus the Malays went for lunch at e food court at Causeway Point. it was a big affair, considering how mani ppl went... Den Hash-brown, Ang Yun, Simone, Arison, Terrence, Yiling, Benjamin and me went ice-skating at Fuji Ice Palace aft changing our clothes at Causeway.

It was definitely fun~!!!!

Although i fell most of the time, it was definitely a gr8 time for me... I believe that learning how to fall is the best way to learn how to stand... Those that explains why i kip falling? hopefulli... Simone, Arison, Terrence and Yiling were like so graceful lar~ Glide here, glide there... Den the rest of us (esp Me!!!), were like trying our best nt to do anything wrong lar... haha~ i think i improved lots... From my "on-ice-sure-fall' to "one-round-without-falling"... Nt bad~!!

Den Ben had to leave halfwae 'coz of his sec 4 class outing... haiz... Less one person to fall with me... Budden end up there was going to be a big pile up concerning the rest of the guys...

Ang Yun, Arison and Hashwin dunno how lar, piled up. Den Hashwin had dis deep cut from his temple(?) to the eye there(!)... i look already scared lar... Den Yiling dunno go where... So i had to tend the wound... I din do much lar.. Din dare to look. So i go wash hands, den tape a bit of the dressing on the wound before all of us send him to the nearest clinic.

At the Raffles Medical, We were like sitting dere, toking, waiting for Hash-brown to appear frm his "stitching". But end up dey ask him go hospital coz his wound too near the eye le... den dey dun wanna stitch for him... I was like "Whoa... So serious???"... Hash called his parents and they wae he tok was like... Cool~!!!

"Hello~? I have to go hospital." (so direct~!!!)
"I busted my eye." (Nice wae of putting it...)

Cool.

Hash's parents wanted him go home first before the hospital... think dey wanna see the wound first ba??? Anyhow, Hash returned home first and the rest of the grp(minus hash, minus ben) went for dinner at the pizza hut at Jurong Entertainment centre... Which was after we go x-zone to plae a few games lar... and we had photo shot~!!! As in in those machines lar... haha~ Had lots of fun... We took 10 pictures in that small machines with 10 diff postures, consisting 6 ppl... It was veri cramp, but, Fun~!!!

Crazy affair.

We ate as per norm, with lots of stupid jokes and lame games until the last part where they wanted to plae "Zong ji mi ma". Damn yucks lar~ The loser had to eat pieces of pizza which dey mutilated until its lyk nt pizza anymore.. "pizzas" with lots of chilli, cheese on it. Some pieces even had some cold soup and mushroom on it... Yucks~! i was lucky enough not having to eat the chilly one... i ate the one with lots of cheese de... I think... I dun realli like pizza hut's cheese... I dun like. haiz~ Phobia le ba? =D

Tiring dae lor.. and dis morning when i woke up, my legs were in gr8 pain... i dun think i dare to mover much dis few daes... my blister hurts~~!!!! (Oh yar.. My blister bled so much that my pink socks decide to change its color to red ard the heel... Imagine the pain~)

I think its time to do my work le~ Can't wait for another outing~~!!!

*** Hopefulli Hash turns up okae on monday~

Singaporeans...

2006-04-06T22:47:00.000+08:00

Lately no time blog... so end up todae gt time blog got alot of things to blog~ :P

Topic 1 : Seriously. Are Singaporeans too stressed???

One incident: Todae, aft a hanging out in the M1-1 computer lab and a basketball game with some of my CG, ben, terrence, yiling and me were on our wae towards Woodlands MRT station when we caught sight of our train arriving. Ben n i rushed and got ourselves on the train, onli to find that terrence n yiling did nt managed to catch up, which by then is too late...

Jus now, Terrence asked me y i rushed, referring to the incident mentioned above. I replied... that it was jus instinct that when we see train arriving, we rush... Is that true??? isSit something lyk a reflex action already??? Why did dis happen???

Haiz...

Topic 2: My perspectives.

Hm~ i remembered i blogged something similar to dis title before... so u guys can go check it out.... :P A fren of mine told me that my previous blog can actualli make e particular guy feel that kinda angry and i might be seen as "too much" or something lar~ so i tot of writing dis blog to clarify.

Wadeva i blog, its all frm my perspectives against onli the topic and nth else, nt even any guy... I'll nvr outcast ppl becoz of hu dey are and what dey did. I'll nvr do that to anyone coz i think its nt veri nice to do it, even if he/she backstabbed me or tricked me before.

So peeps, pls forgive me if wadeva i posted seems abit too much or too against u coz i jus sae wad i think lar~ hopefulli in a nicer wae though... I'm nvr against anyone for hu dey are or wad dey did, i'm onli jus covering my perspectives on a particular issue onli...

I noe its confusing here but i still hope u still get my point... :P

Differences

2006-04-04T21:56:00.000+08:00

i encountered something todae which makes me feel quite insecure. It made me think twice and thrice, ponder over and over again. its stuck in my mind and i cldn't get it outta my mind....

It happened jus before PE, during the Indepenedent Learning Time. We were all relaxing, toking and joking when dis guy here made a comment abt some other guy in the class. Abt his academic qualifications and ability. When i heard it, it made me shiver, down my spine, think abt the "supposed" unity in the class...

Why can't ppl jus forget abt the diff and work together? Lyk dey sae, happi or not we're gonna be stuck together for 2 yrs. Why bother to bad mouth some one if u noe u r gonna be stuck with him/her??? Why bother to make ur own life miserable??? I realli dun understand lar~ Wld one be more happi with frens ard him, though nt perfect human beings but still frens???? or Wld one be happier with not much frens ard him, though all "perfect" but in a dangerous situation???? If its u, which wld u choose????

Y bother to think so much? y bother to care abt other ppl's past and everything else? What matters is now.

So what we shld do now is to forget abt our old differences and march together, as one~!!!

Guys crying.

2006-04-01T21:27:00.000+08:00

Is dere a prob with guys cryin???

I dun find it a prob but most ppl do. To be truthful, i kinda pity the guys. All e wae since dey were still boys, dey had been told to be a "boy" and try nt to cry whatever the circumstances are... Y can't dey jus let their feelings out and cry??? Y mus dey keep it all in the heart, endure thru those heart ache and still look unfazed by all their troubles??? Y mus we follow the conventional way of thinking that guys shld nt cry or else they are weak??? WHY???

i guess its becoz they are comparing guys with gals ba??? Gals are always seen as a weaker sex so dey allow gals to cry. However, guys, as a stronger sex are seen to be stronger den gals in every other waes, so by crying, it will seems dat dey are lyk gals, den dey will b considered as weak, juz lyk e gals... Is dat true???

I guess if it is true, den with the women's rite coming up, gals are seen to be stronger... Den guys mus be even stronger?!? How strong can guys be??? I mean, guys are still human aren't dey??? So... guys cannot even cry now lar??? haiz... poor things...

Why nt we juz break the rule and let guys cry for once??? Stop telling them nt to cry coz they will be seen as a sissy. Let them express their feelings, let the tears flow free and easy...

exhausted

2006-03-31T22:24:00.000+08:00

Dis week has been a tiring one. First there was training for the cross country, den the cross country itself. After that i had to start on the mountains of tutorials and assignment before the application for the council thingy... A long week... And i'm so tired...

My GP teacher, Mrs. Woo's going off le coz my original teacher will be returning from her maternity leave nxt wk.. I think i'll miss her... She 's nt bad a teacher and she sort of makes things interesting... Haiz~ Why are we changing teacher again???

Jus went to bowling with Ang Yun at the civil service club in bt batok($1.50/game)... okae lar~ although i seriously think that the balls dere abit too extreme in terms of weight and finger size. There's alot of heavy( all the wae till 15 pound) balls ard and the finger size for each ball is standard for its weight... Which means e ball i took todae doesn't realli fit lar~ now my fingers hurt...

As if nt enough, all my fingers are now swollen... I dunno why lar~ It does nt hurt yet it feels kinda pain... I wonder why dis happens...

Dis weekend mus pia hw le!!!! cannot drag le!!!! HAiz~ but i still have no wish to touch it yet... Weekend pia ba~ now relax abit first...

parents coming home dis coming tuesdae le~!!!! Yay~!!! finalli...

Nt bad a dae

2006-03-29T21:51:00.000+08:00

Finalli~!!! I can breath much easier~!!! The cross country over le~!!! Yay~!!!

I have no wish to run dis wk. Dun even make me run. i nid rest~!!!

Me both entire legs veri suan lar~ lyk no energy de lar~ like walking also no energy dat type lar~!!!! Try running for 5 consecutive days and u will get wad i mean~

Went to out to eat Mac with Cg(nt all went though) aft cross country. Can't believe it lar. we can actualli eat in there and crap for so long lor~!!! Ang yun, rachel, Zu, Ben can actualli crap so much lor~~~!!!! Waliew... I almost choked to death on a french fry listening to them crap... Real health hazards!!!! seems like yiling was the onli sane one sitting dere lar~ The rest of the ppl (zhi wen, simone, arison) dey all are also quite sane lor... tok abt shirt, pajama, gays and stuff whereas the other side tok until... (angyun) sae his whole bodi is his stomach. den can squeeze fries thru his fingers if full le.... damn stupid lar~!!!! imagine the whole dae we were crapping dere...

No wonder i choked.

Aft the lunch we actualli wanted to go bowling de. But den when we reached the grassroot community centre, the lanes are all booked for training. So end up we plaed some video games which were jus outside the bowling centre. den i had to leave them at it coz of bowling training... haiz~

The training todae nt bad lar. At least got learn how to hook lor~ den i think i improved alot since my first session~!!! haha~ but still nowhere near the pros lar~ (obviously). Quite fun... Got to interact more with ppl and the coach. But still abit under pressure for new ball...

todae my 4 training and he alreadi wanna put me into competition le lar~~~!!!! wth~~!!!! super beginner lar~!!! Den so fast compete~!!!! Crap~~!!!!

found out that e nigel is nt "nigel"... the coach abit lame lar~ ppl sae name is renjie le still sae nigel... wad the hell... haha~

Hm... i think i nid to rest abit le... tml still nid to pia hw... arh~!!!

tired~~

2006-03-28T22:05:00.000+08:00

i'm veri tired~

i'm realli veri tired~

Veri~

Haiz~ pia the 1.6 km todae... coz i felt guilty for nt running a single km yesterdae...

1.6 km.

Tml got cross country... 3.2 km. How to run??? my limbs feel dead. Or mebbe dey are... How to run??? Some more run competitive... Haiz~

I miss my parents... Dey called jus now and dey are now in GuangZhou... Haiz~ tok until healfwae suddenly miss dem alot...

Haiz...

Tml mebbe going to have a class outing... mebbe watch movie together... hope i wun fall asleep den~ haha~

Actualli wanted to go train bowling de... but CG comes first lar~ some more dis is the first ever CG outing, how to miss???

Busi... Lately... veri busi...
Tired... Lately... veri tired...

tired~

2006-03-27T21:21:00.000+08:00

my right eye hurts. it doesn't feel veri comfortable. it feels as if something is gonna happen to it. like conjunctiva or something.

Haiz~

I think there's something in my life which is in nid to be changed. I fall into the state of depression too easily. I'm either too energetic, can't wait to go for even PE, or that i feel so damn tired until i have no wish to even move myself from danger. Hah~ i even lose interest easily in stuff. Except reading novels.

I'm tired of these emotions le. Is it because i'm too tired? Or me being tired is jus another feeling?

i dunno. I realli dunno.

My parents are going oversea tml. I barely communicated with them enough since their return frm Taiwan and i have to part with them again. Kinda sad. As if not enough, i have to put up with a naggy grandma and two idiotic brothers.

How tiring can life be?

This is getting stupid. My life is.

Anticipation

2006-03-26T20:07:00.000+08:00

Was looking forward to cross country de... But now...

haiz...

Is ignorance a Bliss???

I dunno lehx~ On one hand, it might be betta to be kept in dark, live life as happily as possible, not knowing the dangers future holds. On the other, it might be betta to have the adequate knowledge abt the future, prevent certain diasters and problems one may face...

So is it or is it not a bliss to be ignorant?

I noe dis is a question which was asked and asked again... but it's still the crux of my problem...

i kip asking myself questions, questions i have no wish for answers for... and yet, i continue to ask. Its annoyingly stupid of my curious mind but it nvr seem to give up asking...

I'll run. for the sake of numbing my mind. I'll run. for the sake of not troubling myself.

I'll run.

understand

2006-03-25T22:16:00.000+08:00

I nvr seem to get a full rest~

i had to wake up earli dis morning to go to dad's office to help out... by typing invoices... lousy job lor... hundreds and hundreds of invoices waiting for me to type and i was alreadi half dead. But i manage to strike a deal with my dad. By typing one month's invoice, i will get $60 as pay... which makes it abt 2.7 cents per invoice... Nt bad~ but i have to type it at home... which means... ard the clock...

i think my fingers' tips are getting tender... I hope dey will go numb soon.. so that i may nt feel the pain~

As if i'm nt tired by my lack of slp and lack of movement, i had to go swweep graves with relatives...

I'm nt complaining abt having to go lar~ Its nt bad. I got to see my paternal grandma whom i onli had a glimpse of during my childhood. I got to hear abt my dad's younger days and ppl hu were with him then.

Its like on a discovery journey.

But still... i do hope that i can have a good rest before the tiring wk of runs and activites comes along...

There's something which i dun and dun wanna understand (so i wun post it here). I somehow hope that i can stop being stupid by asking myself questions which i dun even noe how to answer.

But then again, my inqusitive mind nvr cease to bother me.

Is that y i keep feeling tired? is that y i nvr seems to get a gd enough rest?

again, these are the questions i'll nvr b able to answer myself...

stupid me

Crapz~~!!!!

2006-03-24T19:37:00.000+08:00

wth lorz~ how cld dey do dis to me!!!! how cld dey~?!?!

haiyo~ at first, me started running jus to keep fit, to cut weight. Den, it was to improve on my 2.4 km... All these time i had been challenging myself, nthing more, nthing less. Nxt wed jiu cross country le. me intended to run onli to challenge myself, to see how far i can go... How cld u guys sabo me until lyk dat??? I dun wanna to b a competitive runner lar~ No hope de~!!! Sure throw 0612c face, sagi's face, ijc face and most imptly, MY FACE!!! Arh~~~!!!! how cld u do dis to me~?!?!

Jus now i went for a run in the tembusu park which is jus oppo my hse, jus for laughter, jus for fun... Mebbe jus to c how fast, how far i can do.... i think... dat dae... hopefulli i jus break my leg or something lar~ or mebbe leg cramp once, twice, thrice~ fall dwn den hurt myself lor~

Gosh~! I AM that despo~!!!!

tired le lar~ where gt energy run~?!? me no more stamina, no more strength le lar~ how to run!?!? arh~!!!! I run for leisure!!! Not against ppl!!! Against ppl i will stress de~!!! den i prob will nt run as per norm de~!!!

Argh~~!!!

I dun wanna run~!!! DUN WAN!!! Waaaaaahhhh :(

DUN WAN!!!!

Einstein.

2006-03-23T21:09:00.000+08:00

Yesterdae during physics prac, i was so bored to death dat i tot abt enstein special theory of relativity..

i realise that if u place a realli veri long stick on the ground and u make sure that every part of it is of the same distance from the centre of gravity of earth, assuming that the ground is definitely flat, when u hold it up (assuming u can), the stick will seem to curve one side, but not str, even though its flat to e ground.

I realised a veri important factor in this "tot" experiment. The earth is round.

I tried pushing my tot to my CGs but ended up dey sae me think too much... I even tried discussing time paradox with them and they were lyk... Haiz~ Disappointed. I confirmed my view with my physics tutor and i was rite~(yay!) So happi~

For more info abt einstein's theory of relativity, these are the following websites u can go to~
http://archive.ncsa.uiuc.edu/Cyberia/NumRel/GenRelativity.html
http://csep10.phys.utk.edu/astr161/lect/history/einstein.html

For time paradox, this is one webstie u can go to~
http://homepage.mac.com/billtomlinson/newtt.html

As juan and i made our wae to orchid country club for bowling, i tried discussing it with her. She was more spontaneous den my CGs. (yay~!) While discussing, we came up with a startling conclusion: Things which may be curve may be in fact, str; Things which may be str may be in fact, curved. This give a whole new meaning to the word "straight".

So ppl hu declare themselves as "str" may not be str afterall??? Ppl hu declare themselves as "nt str" may be "str" afterall???

So interesting~

cca~

2006-03-22T20:26:00.000+08:00

Tired. I'm realli tired. Nt sure why. School ended early todae. But still veri tired. haiz~.

Todae actualli dun wan go bowling de lor... Wanted to go home slp~!!! But Juan and ang yun fan me until cannot tahan. den me take into account sae dis time last time le~ last training, den i gave up and went dere. Obviously we arrived late. We onli left lyk 1 hr plus to bowl. So we jus joined a lane of noobs to bowl lor. Den the coach suddenly pointed at me when i was finishing up a throw and gave a thumb up. Me xia dao lar~ anyhow do de. no experience. still learning. still can sae gd. I think he realli despo for female bowlers lor. Den keep on pressurize me get ball. Expensive lehx. after the session we gt into dis mini conference. i decided nt to buy the ball till i'm comfortable. Meanwhile, i'll train up to 11pounds 1st. Nigel (captain for yr1) sae gt a place can get free ball coz ppl dun wan de. Hey. I'm cheapskate. But still if wanna buy ball also nt the rite time lor. so may as well.

i think sooner or later my rite arm become muscular lor.

I dunno which cca to go for lor. Shooting. Wanna go de. But lyk no news no nothing. how to go? Bowling. Damn expensive lor. although sure get into school team lar. but may nt be in time for dis yr's tournament. Student council. i can get in mehx?

Everything got its pros and cons. I realli dunno how lor.

Todae chinese quite fun ba? get to do blog. the thing is the blog is for chinese weekly compo. haiz. think my han yu pin yin sure improve de le. the add is www.crappy-crapz.blogspot.com. i noe it sounds stupid. but i can't think of a name at that point of time. so i gave up and type crap. den i sort of tot of it. so jus type out the whole thing. nth in dere yet now. mebbe later~

i think lately, gp has become more and more interesting. "Shld we allow homo couples n singles to adopt" i realli no comments lor. But still mus force out comment. haiz. wadeva. me think is betta nt lar. singles is no prob. but for homo... no offence lar. but its jus dat its betta to let the child grow in the "social norm" environment ba? i think its dwn to how responsible the guidians are. if they realli care abt the child's future, den i think its definitely okay lor. coz they will definitely think of the impact dey will hab on e child. den the child will grow up in the best environment these guidians can provide de lor.

complicated. life's nvr simple enough to put it dwn in words.

The questions for PW came out todae. Tradition and momentum. Dunno which to choose. Think abt this later.

Tired. Damn tired. How to survive JC???

Back to school~

2006-03-20T22:01:00.000+08:00

so fast term 2 start lo~ haiz... Time pass so fast that i can't believe it~ Todae was a brand new year for most of my classmates here in 0612C, IJC, considering the fact that most of them was NT in 0612c or in IJC during their first two months...

Hm~ I wld like to extend a warm welcome to them and apologise.. I'm so sry if we, the pioneers of 0612c seems to outcast you guys... Pls be assured that, at most will onli b temporary. i believe that is quite inevitable but u guys have to give us time... I dunno how the hell u guys gonna see dis msg here but i do hope it'll filter dwn to u guys... how? again, i do nt have an answer~

when we were all set and ready to go home after our Chem practical, we saw a miraculous sight. The area before the foyer is dry. Definitely dry. But the area from the foyer onwards is definitely not... It seems to be pouring lor~ So, my school was split into "raining" area and "Not-raining" area... It was like so cool!!! I noe this phenomenon is nt unheard of but still, i did not noe IJC is that big to accomodate such happenings... It was like a "wow~" thingy for me although it may nt be for other ppl..

I finalli realise wad juan meant when she saes our uniform's waterproof... It was raining by the time we 0612c was heading for home.. so most of us had to go home in the rain, given the fact that most of us din bring umbrella or wadsoeva~ By the time me, ang yun and yiling reached woodlands MRT, we had collected enough water on our uniform... The water droplets DO NOT sink into the clothe, instead, it stay put there... like those water droplets on the leaf... Interesting~~~ I reckon if we had shook our uniform rite there and then, our uniform wld be splashing water like a sprinkler gone mad... haha~ That's definitely exagerating but you get the point.

Todae's such a tiring dae... Haiz~ It seems abit.. scary~ Dis is the first dae onli and i had to go for an hour's nap just to prevent myself frm getting headache while doing my homework... scary? First dae onli lehx~!!!! I hope i can get use to it~!!!

Whoa... It seems lyk i'm abit hopeful these few daes... Hoping for lots of stuff to happen...

*ps Yuan lai my aunt also quite hip de... She actualli ask me to jio her nxt time i go plae pool... interesting~
**ps Me weight no change, me height increase 1 cm... yay~!!!

Moi Birthdae

2006-03-17T22:54:00.001+08:00

Hehe~ Went to bt batok cdans to bowl with class...

Nt sure whether it can b called a class outin anot~ coz ended up onli me, juan, kailin, ian, wenjun, ping han sharing ONE lane away frm the rest of the class... haiz~ k lar its nt our fault dat we are seperate lar~ nt on purpose de lar~ its jus dat all lanes were booked up and that its diff to get lanes which are close together~ haha~ Hm~ okae lar~ i shan't comment on todae's bowling games although i gt a score of 126 in one game~ yeah~ haha~ my highest so far~ haha~ yay~!!!

After dat, me, juan and kailin go Sakae eat lunch + dinner... yay~! haha~ we went for the tea buffet... i managed to eat 8 plates~ which is an acheievement for me~!! haha~ we saw dis note abt free fruit and mochi... we were so happi until we saw that the mochi was lyk so damn yucky... haiz... den we decide to call Ben along to eat... so as to help us with the Mochi~ haha~ no lar~ Actualli if he come dwn eat jiu no nid dat luan lor~ haha~ during the whole eating process we were laughing throughout~ lame jokes lor but dunno y veri funni~ haha~ laugh until cannot... laugh until stomach pain~

Hm~ aft that, the whole lot of us went pool~ haha~ quite fun u noe~ haha~ i'm still a beginner lar but still its a fun game.. dun understand y i nvr wan to learn it in the past... haiz~ haha~ alot of tycoism going on... We laughed throughout the whole thing too... I dunno y lar~ But super lame jokes can still b quite funni for us all~ haha~ hm~ todae birthdae quite fun lar~

I wld lyk to sae a BIG thank you to all of those hu wished me happi birthdae and gave me prezzie~!!! Hm~ Sui chang> for the blinker!!! Ben> for the two piggies. Shu juan> for the bear. Min shan> for the greetings... and alot more for those hu did~!!!

Thanks!!! 18/03/06 comin le~ yeaH~ Stay happi always guys~!!!

FRS 06

2006-03-16T23:06:00.000+08:00

i think i slept the earliest todae... Well.. If u think in terms of time.. yeah... I think e approx time i finalli gave up was 4.00am in the morning... den i woke up at 6.30am... which makes it a total of 2 hours and 30 minutes of sleeping time... To speak e truth, i think that's the shortest sleeping time i ever had...

The reason i woke up at 6.30am was that i was to reach swiss by 7.30am.. haha~ me join the FRS ppl to go support them mahx~ I heard frm bee wah dat it was veri humid and "baking" in the tent, so i wore beach wear- style... haha~ damn weird lor... but then it was okae lar~ at least i dun get to suffer that much...

Hm... The place there was "okae" ... in the morning, it was veri cooling... with the morning coolness and air con... I was regreting to go there in shorts le... until afternoon... I felt so damn warm lor... Haiz.. i was NT perspiring for goodness' sake. But its lyk... U can't perspire to cool urself, and yet u feel so damn warm... den it was damn cramp... Seriously... Haiz.. at one point of time when i wanted to go toilet, (oh yar, i manage to drink 1 litre jus to keep myself cool) i had to tip toe past ppl's knees, backs, and wadeva there's (grandstand style) to jus look for a path to the door for the toilet... haiz... den my leg lyk cannot move much... haiz... lucky i was wearing shorts... at least i can move my legs freely... nt lyk my juniors, wearing skirts... haha~

Swiss Atomic rank first in terms of robot performance!!! Nice!!! Although i do hear complaints, but still, dey belong to the Swiss family. Dey win = Swiss win = we all win!!! So dun complain lar hor~ okie??? Anywae, congrats to Swiss Atomic!!! Jia you and make our school proud ba!!!

Swiss Rolls although nt in top ten, but they improved alot!!! Heh heh~ Jia you ba~!!! I'm veri sure u guys can make it de!!!! Hm... Jus relax abit and do ur best. Maintain, or even betta, improve and u guys can make it to top 10... Haha~ Me esp happi abt ur last few performances... haha~ Jia you!!! Swiss Rolls!!! Jia you!!!

Hm... i think Swiss SAT club is getting betta n betta~! haha~ I'm glad u guys did a good job! Tml jiu last dae le... Put in your best and i'll b waiting for gd news de le!!!

Ehx... Tml me birthdae le lo!!! My parents coz tml nid to fly to... China... so tml cannot celebrate with me... so dey celebrated it todae... Aunt gave me some veri cute stuff... including one pink "rabbit's" foot... Veri cute... Hm~ the crab todae although nt veri nice but still... becoz my birthdae celebration de... so mus sae veri nice.. haha~

I hope Swiss Rolls will make it.. Nt that i bias against Swiss Atomic lar~ But i think dey lyk no prob lor.. haha~ no nid me worri... i more worri abt swiss rolls... Their leader veri stress lor~ So me scare him do anything nt veri logical... haha~

And you guys gettin sick le hor~ make sure u get plenty of water~ I realli hope nxt yr's FRS will b betta lor~ as in in terms of its condition..haiz... hopefulli lar~

20 more mins to 17/03/2006!!!

Juniors

2006-03-14T21:47:00.000+08:00

Ehx~. Helped my juniors todae... i completed their video and it was lyk so sucky... nt even half as nice as last yr's de... haiz... dunno lehx... The video gt alot of things lorz... Lyk their WRO competition, Shanghai trip, last yr's FRS, dis yr's FRS... K lar... mebbe nt alot, but its just that i had alot of information to process lorz~ haiz... But then i still quite happi lar... at least i gt help... haha~

Hm... abit tired todae.. haha.. but me still veri tempted to go jogging lehx~ haha~ Tml gt bowling session with Innova, thursdae with Kailin, fridae with 4e6... Me no money le lar~!!! Haiz...

Fridae's coming~!!! woohoo~! Moi birthdae lehx~!!! Haha~ alot of activites lining up for me~! yeah~!!!

One wk break~~!!

2006-03-12T21:37:00.000+08:00

Went to dad's office to do his invoicing... haiz~ long tedious work... sian...

Nt much happened todae.. Onli dat tml morning will b veri** busi for me~~~ I'll nid to report to Innova to hand in my chinese compo, den to bt gombak for a morning run before getting back to swiss by 8.30.. wonder wad time i shld go to innova tml... blehx...

later den settle dat ba???

Hm~ jus receive a email by a fellow Kutenai-er (nice name?).. i'm Veri** grateful for the email~! haha~ i tried replying but the mail jus wun get thru... haiz.. disappointed by that.. But i wld lyk to thank him here lar~ haha...

haha~ Thanks alot~! Pls be assured that you are not irritating!!! I met worse before and you definitely qualify as a gr8 guy! Gd luck in your studies and i hope i'll see you around~ :)

I'm veri sorry for publishing dis online but dis is e onli wae i can get back to you asap, provided that u'll read my blog... haha~ I hope you'll c this~! Tag me if you feel comfortable with it and go ahead, the tagboard is meant to be written on~!

Hm~ my birthdae comin le hor... so everyone.. *cough cough* auto a bit hor~ *cough cough* haha~ jking lar~ dun see me as a eyesore lar~ haha~

ehx... Xinyi hereby wish everyone happi holidae~! haha~

Weekend coming~

2006-03-11T20:37:00.000+08:00

Long time no update le lo~

During the orientation 2, there was alot of toks... lyk gt toks by NTU, by subject teachers etc... We OGLS were damn bored by then... We were hearing it for lyk the second time lor~ haiz... Den Shao Wen bored dao... so he arranged all our handphones together to form a "squad". haha~ Den i took photos. Hey~ I was damn bored so u cannot blame me for being too lame hor~

98.7Fm Djays and Ronin came to Innova on thursday... Quite fun and exciting although i wish that moi fellow OGLs wun b that high and that enthu... abit too much lar... Haiz~ wan to enthu is can lar~ but nt lyk dat lor... haiz~ Dun wanna sae hu or how since this blog is open to public but mus u noe, i noe can le.

Hm~ these are some pix i took using my phone so quality nt so nice but still can c~

My juniors going for FRS le~!!! haha~ but their video editing lyk got prob.. so end up i help them make.. i think i veri bold lor... haha~ dunno y lehx~ lately lyk dat de... My ideas became veri bold... Lyk... i gt myself a veri pink handphone strap? haha~ Hm~ last yr, for the video, i used Disney songs.. but dis yr i used "Moonlight Shadow", which is, btw a techno song.. Its quite nice... Haha~ as a matter of fact, its the same song my blog is using... the effect i think is nt bad.. bt i aim to onli repeat the track twice onli.. so the video can onli be 6min long.. i think its long enough to hold everything ba??? I hope so lar~

Haiz.. Dis wkend i tot i veri free de lehx.. So todae aft i passed the laptop to my juniors, i went to a wake, den to lot 1 to gai gai, to get my handphone strap... I planned to finish my chinese compo tml de... den my dad dropped the bomb jus now... Tml i have to go to Dad's office to do the some paperwork... haiz~ dat means i have to finish it by todae... haiz.. hm.. Mondae will b a damn busi dae... As in aft 4 pm lar... haha~ so i think better finish things dis wkend.. haiz...

The ending of O2

2006-03-08T20:37:00.000+08:00

todae was the last dae of the orientation, bode wadmi 2. Hm... out of the 3 days, todae was the best... Haha~ Even though my tribe din win the "Best tribe Award"( Veni's did!!! Congrats to her!!!) and even though my clan din win the "Best Clan Award" (Walla did!!! Congrats!!!), it was still a veri fun and nice orientation. I made frens and learn lots. I din lose anything during throughout the three days (okae... mebbe except for my voice... and sanity???) but i gained frens, knowledge, skills and insights... I happi enough...

Haiz... End le... Kutenai will therefore will b disband... Haiz.. I abit sad... haha~ lyk dey sae, all gd things have to come to an end... haiz... saded...

One thing i found out abt my tribe is that none of them are singaporeans... I'm surprised, but nt shocked. I'm happi n i think dat i'm fortunate enough to be able to make frens hu are nt local... Nt that i bias against them lar~ its jus that its nt easy to get all nationalities into one tribe n b bonded lyk dat... We've Koreans, Indonesians, Malaysians.... Isn't that gr8? most of them comes frm diff school... But imagine going to a foreign school, and hey-hey!!! U find someone hu can speak your native language, use to eat and drink the same thing u used to?? It will b wonderful!! But then... I wld lyk to sae to my tribe ppl... "although we come frm diff country, are of diff backgrd, we are still, of the same flesh and blood, we still, eat and drink the same elements.... Rock on guys~!!!" haha~

Hm~ i think i learnt quite a lot of things thru dis orientation... As a OGL, i learnt to be more responsible. I made several mistakes but hey! I will try my best to do betta!!! Haha~ As a fren, i learnt to be more frenly and enthu... on the first day, it was diff to get the tribe together, but all i nid to do is to try my best... And i'm proud to sae that the ppl did veri well... Todae, they ate ard the table, joking.. poking fun at me... but hey~! at least they are toking!!! haha~

Hm... Have to go back to study le... now its back to the usual time table and wadeva... haiz.. sian~ dey sae our CG may have to split or something lyk dat... I hope nt lar... We had already developed loyalties to our identity... i hope dey wun break us all up or change our class... Pls let us remain intact!!!

Losing voice~

2006-03-06T22:15:00.000+08:00

Change skin again~ haha~ Change to stars de... nice??? My fav. shape lehx~!!!

Hm... todae was orientation 2 day 1... My tribe is Kutenai. The ppl dere r quite okae... except that they can b real quiet lor... haiz... muz always ask dem to shout n dey MAY nt even wanna shout de lor... haiz... But then dey r still considered as nt bad le lar... some are quite cooperative although dere will always be ppl hu r nt... but nvm~! haha~ those hu will cooperate with me will find my tribe fun and united, those hu dun, well... its ur own opinion... haha~ sounds lyk i'm a gangster or something...

Hm... me stole Washo's flg todae... haha~ ended up dey nt happi come complain... haiyar... such a lil thing still wan complain... anything lor~ Den the counsellors sae todae nt counted tml then gt... Hm~ Wadeva lor... Den tml den slowly steal again... haha~

Todae shout until no voice... haiz... todae onli lyk 1st dae, nth much except cheers lor... tml gt station games, gt war games... I think reallli hor... by third day sure no voice de... mus realli get something to soothe the throat... or else realli jia lat... I jus called my OG and my voice was lyk so husky and sexy~ haha~ joking lar~!!! Dun puke!!! Hm... i guess my throat is giving me last warning... haha~ me trying veri hard nt to tok.. juz to rest my throat for tml... haha~ Nt toking is nt easi... at least for me... but at least i'm still trying...

I gt my contact lens todae... ehx... aft lyk 3 mnths wear that thing is lyk a bit giddy... but den gt use to it within the first hour... so its okae... haha~ one yr supply.. i think can stretch to 2 yrs... since i think during exams time i wun wear.

Lately my house's water heater spoil... haiz... 10 yr old heater finalli gave up on us... we end up have to bathe in cold water... Real cold lor... Hm.. Me nt use to the coldness... so when bathing have to grit my teeth and jus do it... haiz... hopefulli e guy can come by faster to fix the new one back. meanwhile its still the cold water... haiz~

Oh yar.. i met chia chee, danfu, hui min, jiande in innova todae... dey r being posted to innova.. i wonder wad class dey'll b in... haha~

haiz.. a bit tired... and oh yar~ i found out something... If u actualli feel tired, u can go run 2.4km... er.. or jus 1.6km... i did jus that n i was more energetic in the first 3 hours... although now i feel lyk i'm dead.... haha~ have to slp earli tonite lo!

Woo-hoo~

2006-03-05T18:56:00.000+08:00

Tml orientation 2 le!!! arh~! ~excited~ haha~ tml's the moment we r all waiting for, esp e OGLs... Hm... i think dakota will win... with shao wen such a responsible leader, OGLs and AOGLs so enthu, how can we nt win~??? haha~

Hm... me went to order my contacts todae.. So i spent abt $150 todae... which is alot... budden $140 is for the contacts lar... so is actualli okae ba?

Hehe~ i finally manage to connect my hp to e comp via my dad's laptop... using e infrared de... hm.. lemme show u some of my pix...

abit blur lar... but nice??? haha~ hm... its quite fun... when u have a camera where ever u go... of coz... its nt quite nice if u use it to take nude pix, video of urself and put it online lar...

hm... Moulin Rouge's on tonite... quite nice a show... mus watch~!!!!

Sleepi...

2006-03-03T22:57:00.000+08:00

Woke up 5.00am todae... nt for running but for homework... haiz... so tired~~ Hm... i did maths dis morning.. end up gt mistake.. den i tried doin chem, which is nt succesful... and chem practical graph... which was actualli okae... except that i was short of time...

Hm... learnt to do the Haka frm Shao wen during meeting... It was quite fun and interesting ba... And nt that difficult... haha~ i just hope that by tmr's meeting, we can jus finsh learning all we have to learn.. haha... Hopefulli so~~

Went back to swiss to get my testimonial... Den i went to sci n tech for all while... (actualli for a super long while lor... all the wae till 7 plus lehx!) Things seems to b almost the same although they are much more organised now... Hm... Gd Job!

haiz... me super tired... but mus endure till its time for bed... or else if i get use to it jiu no gd le... haiz~

Haka! Hi!

2006-03-02T20:58:00.000+08:00

i'm now listening to Haka... for the dunno how mani times... haiz... trying to learn the chant... which is in Maoist... as in the New Zeland tribe de... Cheeminology...

http://news.bbc.co.uk/sportacademy/hi/sa/rugby_union/features/newsid_2224000/2224299.stm

The mp3 is at http://www.geocities.com/colosseum/arena/4856/kamate.html in case u r interested...

here's the lyrics:

Ka mate! Ka mate! Ka ora! Ka ora!
I die! I die! I live! I live!
Ka mate! Ka mate! Ka ora! Ka ora!
I die! I die! I live! I live!
Tenei te tangata puhuru huru
This is the hairy man
Nana nei i tiki mai
Who fetched the Sun
Whakawhiti te ra
And caused it to shine again
A upa ... ne! ka upa ... ne!
One upward step! Another upward step!
A upane kaupane whiti te ra!
An upward step, another.. the Sun shines !!!
Hi !!!

All Blacks' haka... http://www.vaughanwylie.com/01/21/update-all-black-haka-video/

Abit mancho... haha... i think its alot ba... haha~

I haben finish hw yet.. den tonite still have to learn the Haka... Dead le lor... haiz.. Nvm.. tonite no nid to slp... muz somehow finish everything... Tml still gt meeting... den muz rush down to Swiss to get testimonial.. I hope i'll b in time for Science and Tech.. Hope so lar...

Seems dat i'll b niding panadols tml... haiz...

Okae... Its back to the haka now...

busi dae...

2006-02-27T21:13:00.000+08:00

i'm now having this OGL meeting online... 8 ppl online chatting... i'm lucky dat my comp's nt bad... or else it'll b lagging until siao...

Tmr got physics test and yet... i'm still online... Later nid to do revision and chinese and yet i'm still discussing online...

haiz... I haben watch the haka yet... and yet i'm still blogging...

wad crap!?! but suan le... can endure, can handle can le... haha~

my dad told me abt his dream... his lifelong dream... B4 dat, i tot his was to live in a bungalow, in the lap of luxury but i was totally wrong.. he told me he wld love to, one day, sit rite in the middle of a plain, to read newspaper... it was dat simple.. As a joke, i told him dat he cld actualli go New Zeland for dat... and at most while he's readin, a cow wld poke her head in to join in... Haha~ nevertheless, i think its a nice dream.. a nice goal to go after...

Hm.. i think for now, i prob dream of earning big bucks.. getting myself surrounded by gr8 frens... holding hands with my Mr. Right... haha~ Dreams.. yeah~

Dreams... Its so hard to dream and yet... dere's always a goal... an aim which we'll work towards to... Its so hard to let ur imagination run wild with all those sickening rules we have to abide by, all those restrictions we have to place upon ourselves... Wun it be betta if we cld jus... run free? Wun it be betta if we cld jus... Dream?

2006-02-25T21:08:00.000+08:00

I've been slacking for the whole dae le... realli slacking... nt in terms of havin fun outside but in terms of sleepin, resting at home.. I hope dis will rejuvenate me for the hectic week coming up. It'll definitely b filled with OGL meetings, CCA, homework in addition to the usual lectures, and tutorials... Hm... I din realli slack the whole dae ba? In the late morning till late afternoon, I did some of my economics tutorial, tidied my files and documents and stuff lyk that. Then i went to Lot 1 with my aunt and youngest brother to "catch" my brother... He said he wanna go library mah.. den he went for the whole morning... we suspected that he wasn't in the library lyk he claimed so we went on the "investigation"... Ended up he WAS in the library... haiz.. "Mission Failed"

I jus visited my Chinese tutor's blog (www.weiwenren.blogspot.com) to c how mani ppl submitted the hw le... nt much ppl.. me planning to write de.. but now reconsidering coz i still lack of ideas and mood... Hm... the last time i went, which was in school, i saw that one of his links was of another tutor hu's was a tutor of Lin Jun Jie!!! haha... So jus now i went there again to save the pix... Haha...

http://tclim13.blogspot.com/

Suave rite??? haha~ I love his songs... coz they r nice n got the melody.. the upbeat and everything... haha~ But i wun b dat crazy as to badger dis tutor to get his autograph de.. me nt that thick skinned yet~!

hm... Wonder if i shld do the chinese thingy now...

Dis song is "I'm your angel" by Celine Dion and R.Kelly... Enjoy!!! Dedicated to all those ppl out there hu nid someone to rely on and to talk to and Of coz to all those hu noe me!!! Hm.. You can always approach me if u nid a listening ear or something... hehe~ Email me or jus tag me!

pain!!!

2006-02-24T22:10:00.000+08:00

i regret.. i regret training my left arm... now it hurts lyk hell... it was okae yesterdae n e dae before until dis morning, when i reach behind me to tie my hair... I felt my muscles aching but can't identify which... until.. this afternoon as i was stretchin upwards, my arm starts to hurt... n now.. aft i realise it, it indeed hurts.. alot... i can't reach as before, i can't stretch my arm above my head... i regret!!! I hope it goes off soon... Haiz.. now my left arm is lyk sooo useless... cannot move that much... cannot stretch...

hm.. todae i wore the ijc uniform to school... the skirt is lyk so short!!! at least to me lar... den for the whole dae... i felt so restricted... cannot run up the stairs lyk i used to... cannot sit and "qiao" jiao... haiz.. alot of restrictions lor... kinda miss swiss uniform le.. but mus get used to it!!! Me Ij ppl le... haiz...

I joined the orientation 2 as leader todae!!! Hehe... its time to get serious!!! Me planning to b veri enthu!!! Veerrriii enthu!!! haha... I rejoined Dakota!!! Yay~ Hm... quite fun lar.... the guys (onli 3 guys lar) and gals in the clan r all quite enthu de... shld have no prob... Shu juan joined too as my AOGL... hopefulli she wun have any of her diarrhoea at any point of time during 6 ,7 ,8 of march...

have to go le..
bb!!!

A change of skin...

2006-02-22T20:24:00.000+08:00

Whoa... Been sitting here at the comp table for abt 1.5 hrs... jus for changing the blog skin... Nice??? Me noob at html mah... so obviously nid a long time to do all those editing and customization... haha~

Todae veri tired... But nt as tired as yesterdae... I went to slp at 8++pm yesterdae.. which is so damn early... and woke up at 6 am... which is as equally early too... so i slept for ard 8 hours yesterdae... the longest i ever had for a very long time... So todae, I'm quite okae... haha~

Hm... the GP todae was okae... nt veri boring nor exciting... Jus abit of writing... Me long time no write le... so ehx... my writing skills deteriorateuntil cannot... mus realli jia you le... As for chinese lesson, we learnt abt blogging...(?) It was quite fun actualli... nt that i din noe anything abt blogging... its jus that its pretty fun to be in another area to study other than those classrooms... The chem prac, however, was a complete disaster.... i keep refilling the burette with the wrong solution... ended up two of my titration did not change color at all... blur me... haha~

Finally gotten my skirt le!!! I mean my school skirt lar... haha~ its nt bad, quite fitting... although its abit weird lor... there's pleats in frnt but nt behind.. weird? haiz... abit miss swiss uniform le... but den, can change uniform jiu change lor... nt everytime can change uniform design de lehx... haha~

There was this bowling meeting todae... With the new coach... Uncle Derrick, with the surname of Yap. He's abit deaf... so we had to speak a tweeny lil bit louder den usual... even if the LT has onli 4 ppl inside and nobody else is toking... He's cool... and nt bad ba? given that he'll b the first ever bowling coach i'll b having... When he was giving the talk, i felt lyk squirming in my seat... I was surrounded by expert bowlers and i feel odd among them... But still, I'm determined to take up the sport n i will definitely train hard for it! nxt yr, when i sit in the same room with them again, i make sure i am nt the one squriming in the seats!!! muahahaha...

k lar.. gtg le... erm... nt sure wad to do now... play comp games to relax abit or go do some work... haiz.. see first ba...

tiring weekend

2006-02-19T22:58:00.000+08:00

I'm so tired!!! There's lyk so much hw piled up over the weekdaes and i'm too lazi to move the dust.. haiz... sian sia... scari u noe.... gt chinese compo, maths tutorial, chem tutorial, chem assignment... blah blah balh... etc etc... haiz... den my comp still crash... crash u noe!!! (lucky jus now repair it... ) haiz... dere was lyk so mani things piled up...

yesterdae i went to singapore sight-seeing with shu juan... hm... quite fun lar... if u consider going to ICA early in the morning to get my new passport fun.. haha~ At lavender lehx!!! but its okae... gt shu juan bulli 4 e whole journey can le... haha... den we went to bugis.. walk dere lor... using my memory to find the route... haha... nt bad hor... e thing is dat i can onli find the route frm sjab hq onwards... so "poor" shu juan had to walk all over the place... haha... hm... It was so damn warm lor... perspiring lyk mad... haha... treat it as sauna still think its too much lor... haha~ den she bought her new school bag... which looks cool... haha... nt bad lehx... i got see de lor...

hm... den we went to queensway to lk at shoes... her shoes to b exact... so it was damn hot there... (i mean how big can singapore be???) and i walk ard the "mall" till my legs was almost... broken? but i think its nt bad a trip lar... at least gt this shop kipper hu "found" me n recommend "his" contact lenses to me... $140 for 13 pairs of contacts... monthly... nt bad???? Tell me ur comments!!! coz i'm considering...

den we went to clementi for lunch... go eat the western food dere mah... $4... for one set.. quite full... den we made our wae to bt timah... to c there gt ijc uni anot... den crap lor... rain so heavily.. weird weather... we go lk for uni coz she wanna buy early go alter early.. den we also heard that e school lyk changing the skirt design to something which is veri yucki.. so we wondering if we can change fate... but apparently nt... none of the two shops there sell... haiz.. crap... lucky the rain stop le... or else i probably be locked up for indecent language... haha... (joking onli!!! I'm a veri guai person hu dun speak vulgar!!!)

hm.. so dat was yesterdae.. todae, i did most of my hw and went to e library ALONE... haha... k lar.. no big deal.. i sat reading there for lyk an hour plus beofre rushing home to watch the "catch me if u can". nt bad a show.. quite touching lor... haha... oh yar.. speaking of touching.. i wonder if anyone gt the helen keller film??? coz when ijc showed it to us for PCCG once, i kinda curious le... haha.. so if anyone gt mus tell me!!!

kk.. have to go le... bb

IJC

2006-02-16T20:51:00.000+08:00

so tired out... dunno why lehx... lyk lack of slp.... always feel slpy de... haiz... Hm... consider this: 10 ppl go IJC for the first intake, 3 ppl staying in IJC in the end... abit extreme hor??? haha... Anyhow, i'm one of the 3... well... at least go shu juan(my classmate for the last 4 yrs) and ang yun(ehx... schoolmate ba... for 4 yrs) for company.. cannot hope for too much in life lar... give some lose some lor...

Ehx.. lately me abit too enthu lehx... enthu abt school uniform, schoolwork and even pe... haha.. pe coz its frisbee mah... fun lehx!!! although dunno why my accuracy gt prob.. but its still fun. throw here throw there, den sometimes kana hit by the disc... haha... but still quite fun.. at least betta den dat touch rugby... less violent, betta!!!

hm... initally sae 4e6 can go take the testimonial on wed de... den change to friday (which is tml lar...). Now, they sae ms tay still reading our testimonial... den how??? how to get it back??? other classes get it back le... we haven... haiz... abit fan gan lehx... by when!?!?

i think i lyk my new gp teacher... although she's old... and realli english type, she's realli gr8!!! She actualli made us to brainstorm, den debate.. haha... nt realli a debate lar... more of a... discussion??? haha... I was trembling when i was saying my pts lor... stage fright.. haha...

Juan lately dunno y hor, suddenly so enthu abt bowling... dunno y lehx... she actualli tried to persuade me to pon school tml juz to go bowling... abit diao lar... but it was in view that we din actualli noe that our testimonial wasn't rdy for us yet at the moment and that we were planning to go school too to get it... for convinience sake lor... haiz... but i actualli fall for it.. but me have to c angyun going anot coz my purpose is to learn, nt to bowl for entertainment or training... haha.. so end up he decide on nt ponning... so me also nt ponning lor... haha... juan wld still have to come to school... haha.. but the catch is that i wld hav to pei her run tml lor... argh..
if meeting her at 6.15 tml in the morning de hua... den i wld have to wake p at ard 5.45 lehx... a far cry frm my usual 6.30.. haiz...

speaking of juan... i din buy her birthdae prezzie lehx.. haha.. totalli forgotten abt it... i'm so sry!!! hm... will get it asap de lar.. mean while me at most pei her run tml to make up for it lor... haha...

so tired le.. later still have to write chinese compo... den still gt maths tutorial... sian... me tml so earli get up still gt so mani things... haiz...

hm... me bought the school uni le... onli the shirt though... coz skirt dun have my size... hehe... me too slim le lar... haha... actualli no lar... dey dunno y onli have larger sizes... so me no choice have to wait till mondae to get mine... blehx... den its quite long lor... so me planning to alter it!!! haha... me alter skirt becoz its too long... haha... first time lehx!!!

hm... write alot todae.. dunno hu realli will read dat much... but its okae... gt write betta den din write... rite? haha...

0612c @ East coast

2006-02-13T22:06:00.000+08:00

I'm so damn red... nt in the sense of angry but... my skin is realli so damn red... haha... Sunburnt... nt first time le lar... everytime go sure kana sunburn de... but for the first time, i din go for hardcore cycling and again, for the first time, i din submerge myself into the sea water... haha~... first time lehx.. nxt time i go, i will aim for the hardcore cycling... hehe... i will go further den i did before... challenge myself mah...

when 0612c planned dis, everione was quite enthu... so we ordered alot of food... but todae.. onli abt 10 turned up... ended up we ppl have to bbq everything and eat them all... of coz, we din manage to survive them all lar... so some had to packed home some of the uncooked food... haha...

hm.. when we reached dere, we were qute far frm our pit... so we had to walked all the wae towards it.. it was definitely a long trip... Aft that, we checked out the rental of bikes ard that region.. it was damn ex lor...$5 an hour... so me and ben had to walked all the wae dwn to the ones near 7-11 to rent... $5 for the whole dae... nice! haha... den we spent the dae bbqing, cycling up n down... lyk dat lor.. the dae seem to pass by veri quickly... nxt time go i wanna go cycling n cycling onli!!! yay!!!

Haiz.. lucky i got my cap... or else my face sure as red as my arm de... although it is already red le... haha... it think it even got my specs de tan lines le... haha~! Worse is my feet... damn pain sia... imagine walking all over east coast with onli a pair of slippers... pain~!!!! but its worth it!!! i manage to interact with my civics grp ppl n dats good enough for me! although i see dat alot of ppl wanna go out of ijc, i will always remember dem as part of the pioneers of 0612c!! Wooho~!!!